Merc said:
1½ hours or 8,9,10 or however many hours it takes to fly from your home to Ireland - home is suddenly very far away, and you really don't know how much you'll miss until you have actually left. And its all the little things you'll miss - things that you never thought of before, because they've just always been there...
I didn't have anything tying me to where I was in the US when I moved here. I'm not very close to any of my family and all of my friends lived too far away for me to ever see. Like you (and many other expats and potential expats), I never felt like I fit in the US. In college, I had a lot of international friends, and they were always shocked to find out I was American (people I'd known for months thought I was from the UK or Canada). I never felt at home in the US, but I've lived in the UK now for three years and as much as I loved it when I visited, it's not home either. I don't think I'll ever go more than a couple of days (if that) without being reminded of how foreign I am, whether it's because I don't understand something about the tax system or because I don't know where to go to buy transparent packing tape. Even when I apply for citizenship in a couple of years, I'll still be American. I'll still have an American accent, and I'll still know who Mr. Rogers is and be able to hum the final Jeopardy tune.
I've never lived in Ireland, but I can tell you that everything I hated about the US I didn't escape by moving away. Some of the negatives may exist to a lesser extent, but in a way, I think it's the things like corporate dominance, neo-conservativism, the entertainment-focused media, etc. that create such vibrant, passionate subcultures in the US. It seems much harder to find people passionate about politics, underground art, diy ethics, and inclusive feminisms here than it is in the US. I had a very good job in the US, but I've found really hard here to find a job that's even halfway decent, and I'm still way overeducated and overqualified what I'm doing and I make much less than I made in the US (even with the exchange rate!). I miss things I didn't even particularly
like when I lived in America, from grape and cinnamon flavoured stuff to prescription medicines that aren't available here. I won't even go into all the paperwork I've filed and money I've spent so far and have still to spend on visas and adjustments of status.
I'm not trying to discourage you, and I do love living in England in a lot of ways, but the reality of living here is
much different to a visit or even a year here as a student (and you stop noticing the accents very quickly).