I totally feel that miserable feeling about the job, Ali. Which is why I finally managed to quit mine. I quit my job, and I'm not going to give up on doing what I want to do, even if it means years of being broke, because dammit, I saw what it was like to suffer through a job I hated and I can't ever do it again.
I can't tell any more whether I actually don't hate my job, or I've just got used to it and now I'm too scared to start again at the bottom of another career, or if the pay is just making it bearable, but anyway, I have nothing but admiration for people who follow their dreams no matter what. So best of luck and good on you and everyone else doing that.
And Alison, sorry if I sounded disparaging at all about those with wealth, it was more that I was frustrated on the industry's absolute reliance on a very small amount of people, and the pure luck and chance in succeeding in it.
No no, I didn't read any disparagement in that at all. No stress! I just know my family and I have been very lucky in the finance department (we weren't loaded, but my parents were able to retire when I was very young), and I suppose I sometimes have moderately-well-off-person's guilt.
I do feel better since I made that post, though - I've been living alone the past few days and... kind of loving it? It's just really great to be independant and I get to do more stuff I like and blast music while cooking and exercising and I can stay up late playing videogames and so forth. The feeling probably won't last, especially with deadlines and things approaching, but it's nice right now.
I know it's not for everyone, but I personally have loved living on my own this past year - it's not that I didn't like sharing or I had a bad experience (I've also been very lucky in my housemates over the years), but I'm naturally an introvert and it's been wonderful to have my own space, be able to eat and watch whatever I want without wondering what my co-habitators are thinking of my choices. Or worrying about someone overhearing my bass practice... I'm sure the other people in these units might be able to hear me sometimes, but I can't see them so I'll never know.
Big Bother is pretty much the worst. I admit I watched a fair bit of the first season but I can't believe it still exists.
Personally, I'm just busy as hell.
Both of these things. Been so flat-out lately that I've gone and caught a really revolting cold. Can't take a day off (I really shouldn't have gone in yesterday) on Monday cos my manager told me in no uncertain terms that a huge Thing has to be done on Monday... it would have been Friday (unachievable) but luckily someone else who needs to work on it wasn't in, haha.
Someone at work told me the other day that she thinks I look like someone on Big Brother, and suggested I watch it to try to work out who, but I really don't want to know that badly.