Starr
The Fly
Well, with all your help i really was doing so much better. I spoke on the phone with him last nite & spilled my guts. I told him things that i never told him before. He said he wasn't sure if wanted to get back together & i told him that's fine as long as he knew that what i said to him came from heart & i would give him time to think about everything cause that's what i wanted to do.
WELL !!! I feeling so good, so happy, i dancing around my room this morning naked to Elavation. Cause i was whatever will be, will be. i get in to work this morning. i have an email regarding mutal friend of ours in leaving for BOSTON & her party is SAT. I WAS like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!! I freaked out, this sucks....so i called him & he called me back wasn't to happy that i was calling him on this issue. i was like i need to see you, this is crazy. He was like huh..& told him about the party. I said i wanted to give him time because i wanted show that my words i really ment & i needed time as well. I told him, i would rather go with him to the party, then not. More because i don't people to be focusing on us, if one doesn't show, the other will be asked, if we go seperate & not talk, people will ask questions.
AGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I am just such cripple when it comes to this stuff & trying not be. I am so fustrated all over again. My friends are making fun of me because the things i do sound like i am a guy (grrrrrrr).
HELP PLEBA, i need words of wisdom
WELL !!! I feeling so good, so happy, i dancing around my room this morning naked to Elavation. Cause i was whatever will be, will be. i get in to work this morning. i have an email regarding mutal friend of ours in leaving for BOSTON & her party is SAT. I WAS like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!! I freaked out, this sucks....so i called him & he called me back wasn't to happy that i was calling him on this issue. i was like i need to see you, this is crazy. He was like huh..& told him about the party. I said i wanted to give him time because i wanted show that my words i really ment & i needed time as well. I told him, i would rather go with him to the party, then not. More because i don't people to be focusing on us, if one doesn't show, the other will be asked, if we go seperate & not talk, people will ask questions.
AGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I am just such cripple when it comes to this stuff & trying not be. I am so fustrated all over again. My friends are making fun of me because the things i do sound like i am a guy (grrrrrrr).
HELP PLEBA, i need words of wisdom
