Its funny how alike we are. When my friend died earlier this year, my life really got shook up. When I saw the guys on the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame induction, it triggered something in me. I'd always been a fan, but for some reason I just grabbed onto Bono and held on. Mr. Cat said he knew that night that I'd found what I needed to keep me from drowning under the weight of it all. He bought me HTDAAB with the book and the dvd and slowly has been buying me more and more stuff to help me cope.
When I was younger and they told me that my mother was dying I found Pearl Jam. They helped me make it thru a very long ten years of pain with my family. They are still incredibly important to me. I will always have a little piece of Mike walking around with me in my head and in my heart.
I've had other people who have told me that they have inner people as well. I don't think its really that uncommon. I feel like I have different personalities and people that have helped me manage my life over the years. They do grow and change with time. When I was in detox counseling they told me that it was okay as long as I realized the lines between reality and my own subconcious. They did say though if I started answering myself or like your counselor feel like I was being told to hurt myself or others I needed to seek help immediatly. At the time I didn't know yet that my brother was schizo. I honestly think that he was the winner of the grand prize, because of his drug addiction and trauma as a kid. I think he just couldn't cope and finally got pushed over the edge.
Music has helped me cope and kept me from totally completely loosing it. But there are still hard times. But music is an amazing thing that can be comforting and loving all in its own way.