Emilie
I know how you feel, I really do
Been there, done that, still go there all the time, unfortunately. I don't mean to knock counseling, but to me, I don't see how it can help if money is the problem. So, this person with all this money and a piece of paper hanging on the wall is going to tell me I don't feel like shit when I know I do? Sorry, I do not buy that. Not enough money is a terribly depressing and hopeless feeling. I am living with that right now. Not seeing any real way to make enough money to dig out of the hole is like a torture that never ends and the bottomless pit feeling can really drag you down. People with financial security in their lives cannot understand how frightening and depressing and hopeless that really feels. Sometimes I feel like giving up, sometimes I feel like I don't care if I wake up in the morning. Sometimes, the only thing that keeps me interested in life is this forum, yes, it's true, and wondering what would happen to my cats if I were gone. I know someone would take care of the kids, but not the cats. I know living in a fantasy on a mesage board is not going to help me, but it helps me get through in a life of desperation. But you know what Emilie? You have an advantage I don't have. You are young and pretty, you are living your dream in a place you wanted to live and you went for it! I live in a bad place I do not like and see no way out. Dreams are hard to hold onto. But yours are within reach, I know! You are a very special person, look how many friends you have here, and how much Bono loves you! Any of us would love to be in your shoes! I know that you must have personal problems too that we don't know about, I understand that. But you know, I have miserable, hopeless problems, money problems, depression and misery, but I'm not so young and pretty as you, and I don't live in a place I love, and Bono doesn't know me. I know it doesn't make you feel any better to hear others are worse off, but I hope it will make you feel better to know others really really do feel your pain and wish you the best.
You are a nice, sweet, beautiful, good hearted person and I know your future will be something good you deserve!
Whatever it is that is upsetting you now, one day it will be a long, long time ago. There will come a time when this doesn't matter anymore. Think about the time you will tell this to your grandkids, or you can leave it behind and just forget it. But there WILL be better days for Emilie, so hang on until they find you. I know they will!!!