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Old 11-23-2001, 03:07 PM   #1
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Foadie - yes I know it's the vast world of the internet but when you make a friend and then you do something that hurts that friend - it affects you. And it did I admit it, it affected me. Nuff said.

Crzy - thanks for the words, I'm all too familiar with opinions

As for me, like I said in my post those pics that someone sent to me today put it all in perspective - I can be where ever I want to be. I appear to have developed a sort of friendship with some people here and that's a good thing.

I've worked through it and I've pondered it do death. I'm putting it to pasture now but I can tell you this, watch the skies because you never know when the sun will break through the clouds and shine down on you

I shall recover from this madness I shall be happy go-lucky once again -- even if it kills me

Ciao
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Old 11-23-2001, 03:14 PM   #2
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oops,

don't look up now


You never know what's up there!
Take care
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Old 11-23-2001, 03:17 PM   #3
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Hey Crzy

Want some popcorn?


Ah it feels good to smile again
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Old 11-23-2001, 06:57 PM   #4
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this is therapy for the soul

this place is very bad for the soul and really quite addictive in a good sort of way.

Be Happy and Be true
and dance

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Old 11-24-2001, 02:15 AM   #5
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My past life

((I'll start by saying this isn't a hot pics thread but take the time to read before you leave and close the door behind you ))

I must have been a ďdwellerĒ in another life.

Iíll warn you beforehand itís rather lengthy but it is a chain of events and thoughts that have changed in my mind between then and now. This may belong in another forum and most will just pass by because of the label it tends to carry but for those who know me here you will enter and read and hopefully you will relate in some way to my story.

I just canít help myself from thinking and rationalizing what has occurred which more often than not just gets me into trouble.
Itís funny what your perception is of yourself and then to see or hear someone elseís perception of you Ė itís a very strange feeling. It makes you more aware of your words and your actions.

Some of you have wondered what happened to cause this. Some of you have assumed that it happened outside the forum. But then youíd have made the wrong assumption. You must look deeper and read between the lines to truly see what happened between me and another.

But enough dwelling. On to my story. After some sharply toned words it became obvious that misunderstandings can be two handed. But what became obvious is that once the seeds are planted you canít go back, no matter how hard you try to make things right, it seems to make things worse.

So I decided that maybe it be best for all those on this forum if I just disappeared off the canvas. Only then could things return to their happy go-lucky ways. I seem to bring too much thought into things I do or say around here but Iím digressing. Some of you say itís just a forum Ė get a life. Go away if you want, stay if you want.

So then I see that there are other people out there who may not be known to me but seem to know my posts and enjoy them. I understand they arenít for everyone and thatís fine. I do sometimes take things personally when I put effort into a thread or a post and then another thread turns up with the exact same idea and takes off with many many posts and mine gets well Ė a few. To me it sticks out like a sore thumb. It tells me that the name on the creation of the thread says a lot to people in this forum. Maybe Iím reading too much into it but I donít think so. People tend to get branded in this place. Thatís a sad thing.

These are my words of a day ago that helped give me perspective. I warn you Iím not a poet but this is what it looked like;
Well my friends
The time has come
This must reach an end
At this moment in time
As I lie face down on the cold cold ground
They give their all to you
But their all is too late
At this moment in time
The all that they give
Seems to slip through your fingers
I hope it will come again
This moment in time
This moment in time
Where I died inside
I wish I could satisfy myself
At this moment in time
I wish there could be joy
The way itís meant to be
I wish I could go back
To that moment in time
When did it turn
When did it walk away
How can I let it win the fight
At this moment in time
A moment in time when I can live
A moment in time when I can laugh
A moment in time when I can be
I hope that day will be
Another moment in time
I felt I had to leave this place.

Someone sent this to me today




It all makes sense. Does it to you? Miss you guys. Now I shall bury the past.

Ciao
Peace out
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Old 11-24-2001, 02:35 AM   #6
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Icelady, I don't know you and don't remember your posts, but that is probably just because I'm kind of new and tend to skip over many threads. I thought your poem was beautiful, if simple. It doesn't matter if you are popular and get lots of replies to your threads. What matters is that you believe in yourself. After all, no matter how real it seems or actually may be, this is the Internet, girl! I hope you don't leave because I'm sure you are a lovely person and make many people happy.

When you are with me
I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
I'll call to the others
We'll fly
It brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice
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Old 11-24-2001, 02:55 AM   #7
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icelady -

It takes all kinds to make the world go round - if we all agreed on everything it would be a pretty boring place. You can't help how people react to you - you can only help how you react to other people. All that being said, don't leave. I guarantee someone will get pissed at something someone else says a week or a month from now - after a year and a half in this place I've seen it over and over. Just don't worry so much about what other people say - just because someone says something doesn't mean it is right or even rational.

I say all of this with no idea what happened (so I'm not trying to flame anyone else here). I just know people will agree, disagree, and move on down the road.

If you feel you need a break that's cool - I understand 'cause I've done it myself - but don't worry so much about words on a page.

We're One, but we're not the same.


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Old 11-24-2001, 07:17 AM   #8
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Quote:
Originally posted by icelady:
Hey Crzy

Want some popcorn?


Ah it feels good to smile again
Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm - does the Bono come with it?



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Old 11-24-2001, 07:51 AM   #9
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Icelady maybe I'm dim or something but I don't understand. I just hope to see more of you and your threads in the future!

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Old 11-25-2001, 06:06 PM   #10
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I was thinking about you and some of the words to songs from The Unforgettable Fire. I'd write you a poem but I'm not as good as you and Bono.



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