blueeyes
Refugee
Bluephisto: Good morning honey, I didn't hear you get up. *Macphisto slowly, wordlessly took his beloved back into his arms ... he couldn't believe he was actually holding her again. So many dreams, so many thoughts of her had surrounded him these many months that it had become almost easy to believe that she was already dead and that all he loved was her ghost. But she was here, he could feel her warmth through her thin white shirt and her breath against his neck as she sighed and embraced him with her sick-thin arms. The loose, bright cotton of her shirt rustled under his fingers as he caressed her back gently, trying not to succumb to tears. Bluephisto felt the unusual depth of her husband's hug and she turned her face and murmured into his black hair*
Bluephisto: Is everything alright? *For a second his arms tightened around her even more before he murmured a single word into her hair*
Macphisto: Yes. *Thinking to himself* I'm never leaving. There must be some way to convince The Father just to leave it all like this...*Her hair smelled like apples and he closed his eyes to try and trap the tears that had pooled there and were caught in his eyelashes under the black sunglasses. Bluephisto worried. This was so unlike The Fly. Usually he would have given her a dissertation on James Bond, brought the puppy in, drank three cups of coffee, sang a song, and kissed her a dozen times by now. She had never seen him this silent, or felt him clasp her so securely to him, as though he were afraid she would slip away.*
Bluephisto: You're awfully quiet today... *There was no response, only the feeling of his cheek resting on the top of her head and his hand brushing through her hair almost reverently. She looked up at him, he looked almost like he was biting his lip again, a bad habit he had ... she smiled.* I thought you weren't going to do that anymore, *She ran a finger across his lips and they parted gently but no words tumbled out.* Dear, what's wrong? I've never seen you like this ... are you not feeling well? *He nodded mutely and she regarded him with sympathetic, almost unbearably wide blue eyes* Oh, poor dear. *She stood on her toes and kissed him gently on the mouth and she felt his whole body stiffen and his lips press against hers gently, almost shyly at first.*
The Father: *Speaking only to Macphisto* Be careful, my boy ... what she gives, she does not give to you.*Macphisto knew he was right, she wasn't kissing him right now, she was kissing The Fly. He pulled away, shaking with desire and disgust at the same time.*
Macphisto: No... *He stepped back from her, and she regarded him with a confused look on her angellic face*
Bluephisto: You're worrying me. This isn't like you at all ... come here, take those silly things off. *She stepped towards him and before he could stop her, she removed the sunglasses and stared into his eyes.He wondered what she saw there, did she see his broken heart? His torment? Could she see him?*
Bluephisto: Oh God ... *She gasped. Her husband's eyes were bloodshot and full of tears, more miserable than any she had ever seen before, even surpassing Macphisto's tortured eyes the night she left him. He must have been crying for hours, although it looked as though he had been worn down for months... It hit her, he must still be upset about last night. Perhaps she said something in her sleep again ... she was afraid she would. She had dreamt of Macphisto all last night, they were back in the mansion and together, happy and alone. The dream was so real that when she woke up alone, her first thought was that Macphisto must have run down to the wine cellar. That was it. She probably said his name again as she dreamt of him, and it had finally pushed her poor husband over the edge. He didn't deserve this, she had to convince him she didn't care at all about Macphisto, it was obviously tearing him apart. She brushed his cheek with her hand and a tear rolled down from his haunted eyes, she brushed it away with her thumb and kissed the wet skin it left behind. The poor man, even that simple motion seemed to sadden him. She pulled him back towards the couch and sat him down gently beside her. He turned away for a second, shaking.*
Macphisto: I... my head hurts. *He swallowed heavily and looked back at her.* I'm not myself today.
Bluephisto: I think you should lie down.
Macphisto: No, I'm - *She took his hand, pulled him down on the black cushions of the couch beside her, and ran her fingers though his hair. He sighed and closed his eyes, unable to think clearly and she kissed his cheek.*
Bluephisto: I think I know why you're upset.
Macphisto: You do?
Bluephisto: Yes, I can tell from your eyes. You can't hide from me that easily, you know.
Macphisto: So then, *He paused* you know?
Bluephisto: Yes. I'm so sorry. *Macphisto, thinking for a moment that she knew it was him in her husband's body began to cry. She was sorry... Bluephisto didn't expect The Fly to break down like this and she wrapped her arms around him, rubbing his back.* I'm so sorry, you didn't deserve that. I feel so guilty. *He continued to cry quietly in her arms, pulling her closer to him.* It's about last night isn't it? You're still upset about Macphisto aren't you? *He stopped, a heavy door slammed in the face of his relief. She still had no idea. She wasn't apologizing to him, she wasn't even really touching him. The Father laughed to himself, unheard around the corner.* I'm sorry that I said his name in my sleep, I know how much it must have upset you, but I want you to know that you are the only man I will ever love.
Macphisto: *After a pause* Are you sure?
Bluephisto: *Thinking to herself* No. I'm not sure. I just know I'll never see him again... *To the Fly* Yes. I'm absolutely sure.
Macphisto: *He could feel himself beginning to turn cold again, extinguished by her cruel words* What about ... Macphisto? I thought you loved him, once. *She didn't answer* Didn't you?
Bluephisto: *To herself*I still love him ... but he probably hates me. Just say it, just tell him you don't love Mackie! You'll never see him again, he hates you. No one has to know the truth. It's very simple, just say the stupid words and let your poor husband sleep at night!*She cleared her throat and lied into the fabric of his black shirt* I think I did once, a long time ago, but as soon as I met you ... you were all I could think about. That's why I married you. *Her husband remained silent and still. Perhaps he didn't believe her.* I love you Fly, I love only you and I have since I met you *She nearly choked on the words and diguised it as a light cough.*
Macphisto: Since the day you met me, you stopped loving him? You just ... stopped? Why did you go back to him then? *With increasing intensity* Why did you ask him to marry you? Why did you still let him think you loved him? That makes no sense!!!! Why?
Bluephisto: *Surprised by her husband's anger* Honestly?
Macphisto: Yes. Honestly. Tell me.
Bluephisto: *Grimacing under the weight of the lie she was about to tell him, but willing to say it to make his chaotic world simple and to quell his doubts...She swallowed* Because ... he ... *Thinking to herself*Was wonderful and sweet and ... God, I miss him so much. I wish ... no stop thinking about him. Don't cry, stop crying, he'll see you! You're MARRIED! Just do one kind thing for The Fly, he's done so much for YOU.*She spit it out, trying to keep her trembling voice nonchalant and matter of fact* He flattered me. It's awfully nice to have someone like that pursue you, I have to admit, it made me feel good. *He gasped and she looked up at him, running a hand down his cheek* But you, I always wanted you in the end. Don't you see? I married you. I chose you.
Macphisto: *Dully* And what if he came to you right now, at this very moment and told you that he loves you and has never stopped thinking of you and that you're tearing him apart and that he wants to try and make you happy...what if he walked in right now and offered you his heart, what would you do?
Bluephisto: *Thinking to herself* I'd probably cry my eyes out. I'd ask him to forgive me before I died... I'd tell him how much I miss him and that he has my heart already... I'd give anything to see him again before I die, but ... NO! Stop thinking about this. Stop being so selfish! What does your husband need to hear right now? What does he need to hear to be able to sleep at night? *She looked into his eyes as convincingly as she could* I wouldn't even see him.*She kissed his lips but they were cold and he moved off the couch abruptly, turning his back to her. His eyes were now dry and duller than they had ever been. The Father was right ... he was right all along.*
Bluephisto: Fly? Honey? Are you alright?
Macphisto: *Walking out* Better than ever, excuse me.
*The Father was waiting on the other side of the door and greeted him with a cold, formal hug. Macphisto looked at him and nodded numbly. The Father snapped his fingers and they were back in the mansion... Macphisto was back in his own skin.*
The Father: What did I tell you my boy?
Macphisto: *Looking at him with dead eyes* Yes. Thank you. You have been so patient with me.
The Father: Only becuase... I care. You are one of my very best Macphisto. I will not let you slip through the cracks. Ever. You can count on that.
Macphisto: Thank you. It's more than I deserve.
*The Father nodded polietly and snapped his fingers, gone.*
*Bluephisto ran after her husband only to find him in the backyard, letting the dog run around the spacious rocky land. He smiled at her and scooped her up in his arms, kissing her several times and laughing. He didn't seem to remember their conversation at all, and suggested that she must have fallen asleep and dreamt the argument. Later that day, she sat alone in the bedroom while her husband was on the phone and thought about Macphisto, and cried.*
Bluephisto: Is everything alright? *For a second his arms tightened around her even more before he murmured a single word into her hair*
Macphisto: Yes. *Thinking to himself* I'm never leaving. There must be some way to convince The Father just to leave it all like this...*Her hair smelled like apples and he closed his eyes to try and trap the tears that had pooled there and were caught in his eyelashes under the black sunglasses. Bluephisto worried. This was so unlike The Fly. Usually he would have given her a dissertation on James Bond, brought the puppy in, drank three cups of coffee, sang a song, and kissed her a dozen times by now. She had never seen him this silent, or felt him clasp her so securely to him, as though he were afraid she would slip away.*
Bluephisto: You're awfully quiet today... *There was no response, only the feeling of his cheek resting on the top of her head and his hand brushing through her hair almost reverently. She looked up at him, he looked almost like he was biting his lip again, a bad habit he had ... she smiled.* I thought you weren't going to do that anymore, *She ran a finger across his lips and they parted gently but no words tumbled out.* Dear, what's wrong? I've never seen you like this ... are you not feeling well? *He nodded mutely and she regarded him with sympathetic, almost unbearably wide blue eyes* Oh, poor dear. *She stood on her toes and kissed him gently on the mouth and she felt his whole body stiffen and his lips press against hers gently, almost shyly at first.*
The Father: *Speaking only to Macphisto* Be careful, my boy ... what she gives, she does not give to you.*Macphisto knew he was right, she wasn't kissing him right now, she was kissing The Fly. He pulled away, shaking with desire and disgust at the same time.*
Macphisto: No... *He stepped back from her, and she regarded him with a confused look on her angellic face*
Bluephisto: You're worrying me. This isn't like you at all ... come here, take those silly things off. *She stepped towards him and before he could stop her, she removed the sunglasses and stared into his eyes.He wondered what she saw there, did she see his broken heart? His torment? Could she see him?*
Bluephisto: Oh God ... *She gasped. Her husband's eyes were bloodshot and full of tears, more miserable than any she had ever seen before, even surpassing Macphisto's tortured eyes the night she left him. He must have been crying for hours, although it looked as though he had been worn down for months... It hit her, he must still be upset about last night. Perhaps she said something in her sleep again ... she was afraid she would. She had dreamt of Macphisto all last night, they were back in the mansion and together, happy and alone. The dream was so real that when she woke up alone, her first thought was that Macphisto must have run down to the wine cellar. That was it. She probably said his name again as she dreamt of him, and it had finally pushed her poor husband over the edge. He didn't deserve this, she had to convince him she didn't care at all about Macphisto, it was obviously tearing him apart. She brushed his cheek with her hand and a tear rolled down from his haunted eyes, she brushed it away with her thumb and kissed the wet skin it left behind. The poor man, even that simple motion seemed to sadden him. She pulled him back towards the couch and sat him down gently beside her. He turned away for a second, shaking.*
Macphisto: I... my head hurts. *He swallowed heavily and looked back at her.* I'm not myself today.
Bluephisto: I think you should lie down.
Macphisto: No, I'm - *She took his hand, pulled him down on the black cushions of the couch beside her, and ran her fingers though his hair. He sighed and closed his eyes, unable to think clearly and she kissed his cheek.*
Bluephisto: I think I know why you're upset.
Macphisto: You do?
Bluephisto: Yes, I can tell from your eyes. You can't hide from me that easily, you know.
Macphisto: So then, *He paused* you know?
Bluephisto: Yes. I'm so sorry. *Macphisto, thinking for a moment that she knew it was him in her husband's body began to cry. She was sorry... Bluephisto didn't expect The Fly to break down like this and she wrapped her arms around him, rubbing his back.* I'm so sorry, you didn't deserve that. I feel so guilty. *He continued to cry quietly in her arms, pulling her closer to him.* It's about last night isn't it? You're still upset about Macphisto aren't you? *He stopped, a heavy door slammed in the face of his relief. She still had no idea. She wasn't apologizing to him, she wasn't even really touching him. The Father laughed to himself, unheard around the corner.* I'm sorry that I said his name in my sleep, I know how much it must have upset you, but I want you to know that you are the only man I will ever love.
Macphisto: *After a pause* Are you sure?
Bluephisto: *Thinking to herself* No. I'm not sure. I just know I'll never see him again... *To the Fly* Yes. I'm absolutely sure.
Macphisto: *He could feel himself beginning to turn cold again, extinguished by her cruel words* What about ... Macphisto? I thought you loved him, once. *She didn't answer* Didn't you?
Bluephisto: *To herself*I still love him ... but he probably hates me. Just say it, just tell him you don't love Mackie! You'll never see him again, he hates you. No one has to know the truth. It's very simple, just say the stupid words and let your poor husband sleep at night!*She cleared her throat and lied into the fabric of his black shirt* I think I did once, a long time ago, but as soon as I met you ... you were all I could think about. That's why I married you. *Her husband remained silent and still. Perhaps he didn't believe her.* I love you Fly, I love only you and I have since I met you *She nearly choked on the words and diguised it as a light cough.*
Macphisto: Since the day you met me, you stopped loving him? You just ... stopped? Why did you go back to him then? *With increasing intensity* Why did you ask him to marry you? Why did you still let him think you loved him? That makes no sense!!!! Why?
Bluephisto: *Surprised by her husband's anger* Honestly?
Macphisto: Yes. Honestly. Tell me.
Bluephisto: *Grimacing under the weight of the lie she was about to tell him, but willing to say it to make his chaotic world simple and to quell his doubts...She swallowed* Because ... he ... *Thinking to herself*Was wonderful and sweet and ... God, I miss him so much. I wish ... no stop thinking about him. Don't cry, stop crying, he'll see you! You're MARRIED! Just do one kind thing for The Fly, he's done so much for YOU.*She spit it out, trying to keep her trembling voice nonchalant and matter of fact* He flattered me. It's awfully nice to have someone like that pursue you, I have to admit, it made me feel good. *He gasped and she looked up at him, running a hand down his cheek* But you, I always wanted you in the end. Don't you see? I married you. I chose you.
Macphisto: *Dully* And what if he came to you right now, at this very moment and told you that he loves you and has never stopped thinking of you and that you're tearing him apart and that he wants to try and make you happy...what if he walked in right now and offered you his heart, what would you do?
Bluephisto: *Thinking to herself* I'd probably cry my eyes out. I'd ask him to forgive me before I died... I'd tell him how much I miss him and that he has my heart already... I'd give anything to see him again before I die, but ... NO! Stop thinking about this. Stop being so selfish! What does your husband need to hear right now? What does he need to hear to be able to sleep at night? *She looked into his eyes as convincingly as she could* I wouldn't even see him.*She kissed his lips but they were cold and he moved off the couch abruptly, turning his back to her. His eyes were now dry and duller than they had ever been. The Father was right ... he was right all along.*
Bluephisto: Fly? Honey? Are you alright?
Macphisto: *Walking out* Better than ever, excuse me.
*The Father was waiting on the other side of the door and greeted him with a cold, formal hug. Macphisto looked at him and nodded numbly. The Father snapped his fingers and they were back in the mansion... Macphisto was back in his own skin.*
The Father: What did I tell you my boy?
Macphisto: *Looking at him with dead eyes* Yes. Thank you. You have been so patient with me.
The Father: Only becuase... I care. You are one of my very best Macphisto. I will not let you slip through the cracks. Ever. You can count on that.
Macphisto: Thank you. It's more than I deserve.
*The Father nodded polietly and snapped his fingers, gone.*
*Bluephisto ran after her husband only to find him in the backyard, letting the dog run around the spacious rocky land. He smiled at her and scooped her up in his arms, kissing her several times and laughing. He didn't seem to remember their conversation at all, and suggested that she must have fallen asleep and dreamt the argument. Later that day, she sat alone in the bedroom while her husband was on the phone and thought about Macphisto, and cried.*