if only

[zooropamanda]

sometimes i wish i could start my time over,
i'd wash away the bad times,
the mistakes i've made
the idiocy of my voice
and its complaints
could just fly away

sometimes i wish i could say what's in my head
and not what comes out,
the moments we shared
wouldn't seem so bittersweet now
and that time would be given the
respect it deserves.

sometimes i'm not so clever
and i mess it all up
sometimes i look back
instead of looking forward
and it treats my heart
and head wrong.

sometimes i think if only,
and i let my mind be plagued
sometimes i wish it all away
if only i let go.

sometimes out of pain i wish i'd been smarter
i wish i had listened to my head
but i'm happy that i didn't
because if i had
i wouldn't have known the happiest time i've known.

i wouldn't have you in my heart
and despite what i don't have,
i do know it was real, if only for a while.

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[404 Not Found]

that's beautiful

personally, i'd rather regret doing something than not doing it and wishing i had...there are no mistakes, only lessons.

 

[BabyGrace]

Amanda, your writing is so incredibly real. I feel like those first three stanzas are me.

sometimes out of pain i wish i'd been smarter
i wish i had listened to my head
but i'm happy that i didn't
because if i had
i wouldn't have known the happiest time i've known.

why does it seem all good things hurt in the end? thank you Manda for sharing your poetry with us.

 

[ghetofabu]

sometimes i'm not so clever
and i mess it all up
sometimes i look back
instead of looking forward

 

[Bonochick]

Those are feelings that so many people experience. To make beautiful poetry out of them is fantastic.

 

[The_Sweetest_Thing]

sometimes i'm not so clever
and i mess it all up
sometimes i look back
instead of looking forward
and it treats my heart
and head wrong.

sometimes i think if only,
and i let my mind be plagued
sometimes i wish it all away
if only i let go.

I can relate to this very much.

Thank you for taking what I think and turning it into poetry.

 

[LarryMullen's POPAngel]

I can relate to this so much. Great poetry, manda.

 

[zooropamanda]

thanks guys.
i actually dont think of this as poetry
it was just thoughts in my head and i didnt really put much effort into making it sound good.
sometimes u just want to write, othertimes u want it to read prettily off the page or jump out and bite someone.
this was just head thoughts.
thanks again

 

[foray]

sometimes out of pain i wish i'd been smarter
i wish i had listened to my head
but i'm happy that i didn't
because if i had
i wouldn't have known the happiest time i've known.

i wouldn't have you in my heart
and despite what i don't have,
i do know it was real, if only for a while.

foray

 

[diamond]

nice thoughts ms suzukimanda

db9

 

[Michael Griffiths]

I love how direct it is, but more than that, I love that you are so honest with yourself -- a quality that seems to be so rare these days. (I am constantly reminded that we're both Cancers!) I completely relate to what you've written here. Thanks.

 

[zoomerang II]

wow - thats very heartfelt of you amanda.
i always love your stuff.