Hanging around

[AcrobatMan]

My belief of everlasting friendship
The hope of something real
Her care and graceful sincerity
Like an angel always rescuing me

Nice words she said to me
Repeated in my head every single day
Multiplied, inflated and amplified
Compounded till I believed its true

My thoughts of permanence
For her this is just a way
I told her she was the very best
I realised I wasnt even second last

My feelings, her ambitions
That indifference and nice empty talks
The realisation of the truth
My desperation and disintegration
My hint of begging to be back
Silent pleading to get her back.

And crawling everyday thereafter
Suffering well in this real world
While she is just a shadow of my dreams
A creation of my messed up mind
The crystallisation of manic feelings
An illusion fueled by spineless thoughts

She - a permanent imagination
In a never ending hallucination