First Time Here....Be Nice

[Achtung_Bebe]

whooops, forgot my signature:

~#1 fan

[EdgeVox]

Tear me down,
You've got me at my most vulnerable,
I have no choice but to answer you,
I'm not happy,
I'm not livid,
This was all a big mistake,
I'm coasting on my so-called talent,
Kiss me for ol' time's sake,

Tradition, as familiar as it is cowardly,
I promise I'm as scared as you are,
You can see it in my eyes,
I'd promise you the world if it were mine to give,
I'll give it to you anyway....fuck it

[EdgeVox]

Terrified ears,
Cruel tongue,
A generic paradox of disdain,
I'll make you happy as long as you don't cry,
You know just what to say don't you,
I'll stay on account of your fixed weakness,
I don't mean to fuck up,
I don't want to hurt you,
I hate myself for it,
I need you to live,
I'm such a fuckup,
I'm such a bastard,
Sorrow-filled resignation
I'm so fucking tired of feeling so unaccomplished,
You will never own me,
You will never sell me my pride,
Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you

[Achtung_Bebe]

Are you alright? It sounds like you're having war with yourself... I miss your pent up rage--

just kidding with that last part

I do miss you though, I'm happy to read some of your stuff again.

~#1 fan

[EdgeVox]

Woke up late again,
Cigarettes and regret linger in my mouth,
I miss you already,
You've probably found somebody better,
Got a feeling we'll see each other again,
Maybe then you won't be such a drag..

[EdgeVox]

Tiptoeing into your bedroom,
Slipping under your sheets,
Hoping you don't smell the smoke and sex on me,
I'll keep this up til you have the guts to say something...


[This message has been edited by EdgeVox (edited 03-29-2002).]

[EdgeVox]

People angry at time not going their way,
I on the other hand find time very agreeable,
I'm getting older,
You're getting colder,
A relationship forged in disagreements and good sex,
You need to loosen up,
Live a little,
Here take one of my cigarettes,
Let me order you a jack and coke,
Everything's going to fine..
Take it easy

[Achtung_Bebe]

Angry at the sanctity lost in love
Bitter from the cold of a vast empty space
Where are the arms to end all my shivers?
Where is that whisper to grace my ear?
What is the fun of a thrill
When left is a void to fill?
From open arm to open arm,
Self esteem is a hit-or-miss chance,
And love went the way of a lap dance.

[EdgeVox]

"Posture is important", I heard someone say,
I tried not to laugh,
Content in complacency,
Denying mediocrity,
Astute Naivete,
Absense of malice,
Too much experience,
Smoke Drink Fuck
What am I trying to prove?
I think I'm happy...

[EdgeVox]

Slipping off your taboos,
Dancing with your thighs,
Wrapping around your insecurities,
Feigning perfection to make you feel at ease,
I can't help but watch you as you dream,
Selfishly, I never want to leave this moment,
This perfect world I have stumbled onto,
As always I forget to analyze every detail,
Too busy living in the moment,
Nostalgia has nothing on you..

[EdgeVox]

Solemn in my defiance,
Wasted on my own impudence,
Lonely in my noncomformity,
I keep finding ways to cut myself down,

I want you to be happy, not really
I can't seem to get a handle on my own reality
Burned out on cliches
There's a storm on the horizon
This is going to be fun

[diamond]

EdgeVox-
Youre the man.
Thank you for being brave enough to make yourself vulereable in a public place.:idea:
Peace
Out-
DB9

[zooropamanda]

burned out on cliches...

i like that

[EdgeVox]

Incandescent eyes, upon me
Iluminating my hollow soul
Jarring my senses
Relegating my soul
Enticing my passion

These sorrow days fly by
Lay as you shine
Iluminate my redemption
Light up my darkened street
Sunshine, you're love to me
Sunshine, you're love to me
Don't burn out on me

Eyes of doubt
Foreshadowing my every step
Slipping off your lips
Nicotine stained apologies
Whiskey flavored lies
No more, no more

These sorrow days fly by
Lay as you shine
Iluminate my redemption
Light up my darkened street
Sunshine, you're love to me
Sunshine, you're love to me
Don't burn out on me

[EdgeVox]

Your sincerity is laughable
your apologies are cruel
Well done, my naivette is dead
My soul stirs with anger
God it meant nothing to you

My heart bleeds ache
I feel heavy and hollow
Your porceline skin, immaculate
yet rotten on the inside

You didn't mean to hurt me
yet your unintentional cruelty
sears my very reason

Please don't acknowledge me anymore
You're not dead to me,
but I hope I'm dead to you
I'd rather grieve for my lost love
Than coexist with our tarnished reality
You'll always be my first love....
....as well as my last

[EdgeVox]

"He meant nothing to me", she laughed
Her laugh was trivial and cruel,
Apparently this short-lived liason
was of much more signifigance to me

I'm not sure what ached that day
my heart, my pride my wistfull hope
all in all I felt bested, defeated and mournful of the love that was and could've been once again.....

Beset by jealousy
Conquered by insecurities,
is there any way out?

[EdgeVox]

it's 452 am on tuesday august 27 and I'm wondering whether or not to kill myself
is this a call for attention
is this any other cliched situation
if I had any balls I would've done it by now
am I a coward or a rational human being
what's going on with me

I have half my brain telling me to do it
what the fuck is that about
I'm in disbelief
what the fuck is going on
am I that far out of control
am I that far gone
am I a cautionary tale
..............I wonder
I wonder

where this much disillusionment can augment
I'm not a religious person
Jesus, help me
Jesus, help me
penetrate my cynical fascade
please

am I out of options
am I out of ways out
metaphysical alley
please
show me some sort of trancsedence
please
will you miss me or will I become yet another lost cause
catch me
catch me
otherwise see you on my way down,
don't give a shit anymore
don't care
catch me
catch me
I'm ok
I'm ok
where's my favorite brick wall?

[EdgeVox]

Your insignifgant demeanor
Ridiculing my disposition
Summer's gone
yet I've always felt the chill
of winter
Fuck you I'm getting drunk
Gonna drink till I can't see
Maybe till I'm rid of me
You're nothing to me
I wish you were dead in a half assed way
die
I miss you
I miss you
You'll always be on my mind

[EdgeVox]

Our love was swept away like a cliched season,
I don't blame you for your cold cold heart,
I wish there was so much more I could've done for you,
Now there's only pain and things that could've been,
I'll always love you
I'll never forget you
You can always count on my jealousy
You'll always be on my mind

Miss you at once resenting you
Lovesick till there's no hope
Can I exist without your distant guidance?
Am I up for it?
You can hurt me til there's no sky above us,
Knowing full well that I'll forgive you til the end,
Can't help but admire your treachery,
I love you
I love you
You can always count on my naivette
You'll always be on my mind

Shady dealings with the devils of man,
I sit there with wounded eyes,
Predictable outcome, two days too late
I'll catch you
I'll catch you
Wash your dirty feet for you
And pray for your tainted soul
I can't help but love you
I love you
You can always count on my generic benevolence
You'll always be on my mind

[EdgeVox]

I'm so sorry for you
I wish things were different
You should all be here still
dreaming, sighing, loving, living
It's not fair, it's not right, it's not love
Wish you were here
Twenty eight hundred lost souls
I wish things were different
I wish none of this had happened