Angels and gods

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Angels and gods ?

Jacob?s Ladder fallen angels ?

Fallen neither heaven or earth wonders of misfits,

Without feathers and wings,

Without halo and heavenly bliss,

Without blessing as Saints,

What kind of angel would that makes me?



With both dire and kind,

With lights and darkness,

With heart and sound of mind,

With flesh and bones,

A spirit that can bleed



With love and passions,

With pain and loneliness,

With fears and sorrows,

With burden and hollowness,



Without air I cannot breathe,

Without wings I cannot fly,

Without love I cannot live,

Without tears I cannot cry,

Without soul mate I cannot peace



Too much humane to be angel,

Too much kindness to be human,

Convinced to be a spirit yet being so real,

Reluctant to be a human yet has too much spirit within,

Feels like something in between rely only on thoughts and hopes,



Be a spirit in a material world,

Be an angel in the devil?s shoes,

Be as nice as a human could be and receiving pain in return,

Give favors as an angel least could be and given hurts in return,



Have the ability of rage without the ability of hate,

Have the ability to love without the privilege of being loved,

Have the ability to help without the ability to save herself,

Have the world in her hand yet being the loneliest person in this world,



An angel on the loose,

An angel without a home,

An angel who doesn?t know where she belongs,

An angel comes undone



Being an angel never been this restless

Being a human never been this painful

Being something in between is what tear her apart

Believing that God put her into life for a reason

She doesn?t know what the reason was

Restless mind

Wounded soul

Broken heart

Fallen angel,

She?s come undone