popkidu2
War Child
no poem here tonight folks...but i was thinking about some things that happened to me about 10 years ago and realized i've never written about it...
dorky glasses
bad acne
lame clothes
awkward speak
i am just a loser to you
i walk in the shadows
try and fit it
and fail miserably
some accept me
some like me
but i am not cool
i am not like you
you hit me
beat me
break my stuff
piss on my bed
shove shit in my closet
taunt me
fill me with fear
you held a knife to my throat
told me you'd kill me
if i ever told
i walked in the shadows
cried myself to sleep
stayed away
and took my anger out on others
my parents saw the bruises
i told them it was from the hockey game
i slept on the floor
no blanket, one pillow
just to stay away for one night
finally i left
i wouldn't say why
you taunted me as i drove away
but i still wouldn't talk
now i'm 24
i've got friends
i've been successful
my fraternity brothers stand by me
people accept me
i make a difference in peoples lives
i am cool
it seems so long ago
i don't think i'd change what happened
but i watch the news
and i see myself
young, scared, angry, striking out
if i was 14 now
would i pick up a gun?
would i kill because of what you did?
i hope i wouldn't
but now is not 1991
things have changed since then
but i'd like to think i'd still be strong
and not stoop to your level
some days i want to see you again
make you see what i have become
you wouldn't recognize me now
but i would recognize you
because people like you don't change
i am not the loser
you are
and you will always be a loser
for everything you did to me
and for what you probably did
to others after me
It doesn't just happen in public schools folks....prep school can be just as harsh, if not harsher.....
[This message has been edited by popkidu2 (edited 04-25-2001).]
dorky glasses
bad acne
lame clothes
awkward speak
i am just a loser to you
i walk in the shadows
try and fit it
and fail miserably
some accept me
some like me
but i am not cool
i am not like you
you hit me
beat me
break my stuff
piss on my bed
shove shit in my closet
taunt me
fill me with fear
you held a knife to my throat
told me you'd kill me
if i ever told
i walked in the shadows
cried myself to sleep
stayed away
and took my anger out on others
my parents saw the bruises
i told them it was from the hockey game
i slept on the floor
no blanket, one pillow
just to stay away for one night
finally i left
i wouldn't say why
you taunted me as i drove away
but i still wouldn't talk
now i'm 24
i've got friends
i've been successful
my fraternity brothers stand by me
people accept me
i make a difference in peoples lives
i am cool
it seems so long ago
i don't think i'd change what happened
but i watch the news
and i see myself
young, scared, angry, striking out
if i was 14 now
would i pick up a gun?
would i kill because of what you did?
i hope i wouldn't
but now is not 1991
things have changed since then
but i'd like to think i'd still be strong
and not stoop to your level
some days i want to see you again
make you see what i have become
you wouldn't recognize me now
but i would recognize you
because people like you don't change
i am not the loser
you are
and you will always be a loser
for everything you did to me
and for what you probably did
to others after me
It doesn't just happen in public schools folks....prep school can be just as harsh, if not harsher.....
[This message has been edited by popkidu2 (edited 04-25-2001).]