HelloAngel
ONE love, blood, life
Dear all,
By Monday morning, I will be gone from Interference.
Over this past week, I have been reminded about what's really important to me and my life, and what I need to let go of. I've been reminded about what fun is, the person I want to be, and how I would like to spend my future. When I think about the hours of my days, my months and years, a very low percentage of it is spent building something that I am really proud of on a personal level. It is time to change that now.
You see, U2 and my love of the band represents a very very dark time in my life that I need to let go of. What happened to me in my past and thusly my connection to U2 cannot and should not be the only thing that has ever happened to me. But for so long, out of fear of betraying my younger, more damaged self, I took up residence in Limbo; I wouldn't allow myself new happiness, new laughter - it was all blocked by years of residue, dried tears and dirt on my skin. It is time to change that now.
And because of this - of my need to be the person I have to be, I can no longer be a part of this site. I need to go with my self now. I need to see where this book of mine will take me; where reduced (and unneeded) stress will take me; where lessened responsibility will take me; where no longer living in the rearview will take me. I cannot say at this point if I will be back to Interference or even U2 fandom - but for what it's worth, all of you, every single one of you, have taught me something that I will forever hold onto. And if it shall be, I am most certain our paths will cross again.
I thank you from the bottom of my heart and my rejuvenated soul for all the good times and kindness you have shown me. I wish all of you the best. Please be kind to each other, and always remember to go with yourself.
Love always,
Carrie
By Monday morning, I will be gone from Interference.
Over this past week, I have been reminded about what's really important to me and my life, and what I need to let go of. I've been reminded about what fun is, the person I want to be, and how I would like to spend my future. When I think about the hours of my days, my months and years, a very low percentage of it is spent building something that I am really proud of on a personal level. It is time to change that now.
You see, U2 and my love of the band represents a very very dark time in my life that I need to let go of. What happened to me in my past and thusly my connection to U2 cannot and should not be the only thing that has ever happened to me. But for so long, out of fear of betraying my younger, more damaged self, I took up residence in Limbo; I wouldn't allow myself new happiness, new laughter - it was all blocked by years of residue, dried tears and dirt on my skin. It is time to change that now.
And because of this - of my need to be the person I have to be, I can no longer be a part of this site. I need to go with my self now. I need to see where this book of mine will take me; where reduced (and unneeded) stress will take me; where lessened responsibility will take me; where no longer living in the rearview will take me. I cannot say at this point if I will be back to Interference or even U2 fandom - but for what it's worth, all of you, every single one of you, have taught me something that I will forever hold onto. And if it shall be, I am most certain our paths will cross again.
I thank you from the bottom of my heart and my rejuvenated soul for all the good times and kindness you have shown me. I wish all of you the best. Please be kind to each other, and always remember to go with yourself.
Love always,
Carrie
goodbye, and good luck with your real-life persuits. you will be missed
