Well, its over!!!!! I did it!!! It?s a weight off of my shoulders!!! Man that was horrible but it was also amazing!!!! The tension was so big it was crushing me.
Usually this kind of presentations takes about 30 minutes and the professor starts to discuss it with the class, but since not many people have faith in me and my friends, ours was supposed to take around 15 minutes, that?s how long it takes with us. And I was honestly expecting no discussions. When I got up there I said what I had to say and I said it really good, not flawless but better than I was expecting!!!! I still can?t make much eye contact and I stumble in words, which breaks my concentration.
But I managed to say what I had to say in an understandable way. The professor liked the subject and the presentation so much that she went on to discuss it with me and the rest of the class for over an hour!!!!! OVER AN HOUR!!!!
This was supposed to take 15 minutes. The weirdest thing is that the class is over at 11:30, usually some people get REALLY upset if the professor let us go at 11:30, people want to leave 15 minutes early. Well today it went on to 11:45!!!!!!!! Nobody said a word. People got to listen to the shy and quiet kid talking about what he likes!!!! Music!!!
I kicked major ass!!! There was however a lot of really good things that I could have said but I didn't cause I was too afraid!!!!
I did two interviews with people from a national and an international labels and she LOVED that!!! She thought it was a great idea. The only bad thing is that I have some sort of a back problem (it?s fucked up) and standing up for an hour without moving from your spot, plus with the fact that I was really nervous, is GRUELING!!!!! My spine at some point close to the end was literally shaking! It was hard to hold my body together! I must go to the doctor. But it?s over, she loved it and I probably got a maximum grade!!!!
The day literally started rainy and ended sunny!!!!
Right now I'm listening to Waiting On A Sunny Day and I think it's the first time I'm listening to a happy song while actually happy!!!! I'll be listening to Beautiful Day next!!!
I?m very, very happy that it went this good and partly I think it was because of the messages I got here that were just great messages that helped me a lot.
I'm never waiting for help cause I'm not used to in getting it. I got it here when I needed and I feel blessed.
I don?t know how to thank everybody, this mean a lot to me!!!!! So here goes a big and fat:
THANK YOU!!!!