daisybean
Rock n' Roll Doggie, FOB
My 90 year old great uncle was told by his doctor that he probably only live another six months. They found grows on his lungs, however do not want to operate, or do a biopsy on someone his age, understandably.
My reaction when I heard, was oh that's too bad, but I'm not really upset about it. That is always my initial reaction when someone dies, or is about to die....then I start feeling bad for not feeling worse about what happened. I think sometimes I am more upset with myself for not being more upset that someone I love has died. I think I spend more time wondering, what the hell is wrong with me for not being as upset as I think I should be.
Did that make any sense?
*edit to add* I really think sometimes that wiring that connects my emotions is screwy....I sometimes feel nothing when something bad happens.
My reaction when I heard, was oh that's too bad, but I'm not really upset about it. That is always my initial reaction when someone dies, or is about to die....then I start feeling bad for not feeling worse about what happened. I think sometimes I am more upset with myself for not being more upset that someone I love has died. I think I spend more time wondering, what the hell is wrong with me for not being as upset as I think I should be.
Did that make any sense?
*edit to add* I really think sometimes that wiring that connects my emotions is screwy....I sometimes feel nothing when something bad happens.
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