Stryker395
The Fly
I don't even know what to say. I came here, I guess, for some sort of refuge. I feel like lately I can just come here and read the posts and feel better if something is going wrong. Tonight though, I've decided to post again. I know I only have a handful or so of posts on these message boards but I feel like this community is really kind and caring.
I'm not really looking for any sort of help. I guess in a way I'm looking to just release how I feel. It's a very long story, but to keep it from getting very long I will try to explain it in a more simple way. My gf and I, who have been dating for almost 13 months now, have decided to see other people for the time being. You see, she has a guy friend that she has been really close to now for about 2 years. They are like best friends. In the past I didn't know what to think but lately I've been getting used to him and he and I have actually started to build a friendship of our own. Tonight though my girlfriend told me that she was having mixed feelings about how she felt towards him. We talked about it for a bit and I decided to do something that I felt was best for the both of us. I told her that we should take a break for just a little while so that she could spend more time with him and see exactly if she has feelings for him that are more than a friend. He said he also has mixed feelings toward her.
She still loves me and I love her more than anything on this earth. She said that she was very suprised at how calm I was about it. I don't even know how I was so calm about it either. I know in my heart how I feel about her, but I felt that the right thing was to let her go and see how she really feels about him.
I suppose that it has started to hit me now. I'm not going to let it get to me though. I can't. I don't want to ruin her chances of really finding out. I also don't want to act like I was all for it and now say that it really hurts me. Overall I think that I will be able to take it no matter what happens. I guess I'm just hoping for the best. I love her so much and I can't imagine my life without her. However, if it's not meant to be then at some point I'm going to have to realize it. I'm not crying right now. I'm not really depressed either. I'm just sitting here, listening to U2, and trying to not think about it too much. Bono and the boys really help calm me down and help me relax. I just wanted to get my feelings out. Thanks for being an outlet and thanks for listening. Peace to all of you out there.
I'm not really looking for any sort of help. I guess in a way I'm looking to just release how I feel. It's a very long story, but to keep it from getting very long I will try to explain it in a more simple way. My gf and I, who have been dating for almost 13 months now, have decided to see other people for the time being. You see, she has a guy friend that she has been really close to now for about 2 years. They are like best friends. In the past I didn't know what to think but lately I've been getting used to him and he and I have actually started to build a friendship of our own. Tonight though my girlfriend told me that she was having mixed feelings about how she felt towards him. We talked about it for a bit and I decided to do something that I felt was best for the both of us. I told her that we should take a break for just a little while so that she could spend more time with him and see exactly if she has feelings for him that are more than a friend. He said he also has mixed feelings toward her.
She still loves me and I love her more than anything on this earth. She said that she was very suprised at how calm I was about it. I don't even know how I was so calm about it either. I know in my heart how I feel about her, but I felt that the right thing was to let her go and see how she really feels about him.
I suppose that it has started to hit me now. I'm not going to let it get to me though. I can't. I don't want to ruin her chances of really finding out. I also don't want to act like I was all for it and now say that it really hurts me. Overall I think that I will be able to take it no matter what happens. I guess I'm just hoping for the best. I love her so much and I can't imagine my life without her. However, if it's not meant to be then at some point I'm going to have to realize it. I'm not crying right now. I'm not really depressed either. I'm just sitting here, listening to U2, and trying to not think about it too much. Bono and the boys really help calm me down and help me relax. I just wanted to get my feelings out. Thanks for being an outlet and thanks for listening. Peace to all of you out there.
