I can understand why it is difficult to be, honestly, good people, especially when one is young.
Perhaps this is funny--and maybe this is just me--but I often feel left out by not being an asshole. I mean, perhaps I am overly sensitive to what evangelical Christians say, but I often hear them say how we are all evil and that we must convert....but what about those who have been good their whole lives? I almost think I should, perhaps, reject God, become a whore for about 10 years, and then reconvert just so I can fit in. Then I'd have all these good stories to tell potential converts.
Seriously, though, I'd never do it, but I almost think that people born with good integrity often feel isolated and/or defective, because they aren't "bad" like everyone else.
Anyway, maybe I'm making no sense here. Does anyone know what I'm talking about here???
Regardless, I know exactly what you are talking about, Gina and FOXfire, because I was/am in your boat. Perhaps it's little consolation right now, but when you're older, people will catch up to you. At least, that is what I keep on telling myself...
But if either one of you wish to talk outside the forum, just say the word...
Melon
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"He had lived through an age when men and women with energy and ruthlessness but without much ability or persistence excelled. And even though most of them had gone under, their ignorance had confused Roy, making him wonder whether the things he had striven to learn, and thought of as 'culture,' were irrelevant. Everything was supposed to be the same: commercials, Beethoven's late quartets, pop records, shopfronts, Freud, multi-coloured hair. Greatness, comparison, value, depth: gone, gone, gone. Anything could give some pleasure; he saw that. But not everything provided the sustenance of a deeper understanding." - Hanif Kureishi, Love in a Blue Time
