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This is an interesting situation for me.
My friend, let's call him Jose (lol... it's late, and that seems funny for him.... sorry) has recently told me about his uncertainty of sexual orientation.
He says he's been dealing with this for a few years, and I can believe him. It's been a rough time, because he really isn't sure, he says, just what he is. He doesn't have a problem with being bi or gay, he is just frustrated in not knowing who he is.
I am good friends with Jose, and I respect him a lot as a person. It was "odd" having him say that, but I wasn't too surprised, and essentially it doesn't change how I think about him, considering all that it implies. There is one thing I am concerned about, though.
I like Jose a lot, he's a great guy. But I am not... I don't fancy men. I do not have much of an issue with homosexuality, honestly, just as long as I am not involved. It doesn't do anything for me. But that is who I am, and I respect that, as I respect other people being who they are.
The concern is, I hope Jose doesn't see our friendship as me being very nice to him, as in, I don't want to lead him on by being considerate and mature about this and secular. I still would like to maintain friendship with him, and even though specifics might change based on his future actions, he is still Jose.
But I just don't want to seem like I am open to having a "relationship" with Jose, because I'm not.
I suppose the best thing is to be upfront about that from the beginning, and that sort of is the bottome line
But it is a touchy subject around most, like Jose says. I still want to be friends, but I'm wary....
I say this because I can see myself as coming across as possibly appearing gay within the context of my school.
I dress well
I don't hit on girls excessivly
I don't do a lot of the typical male flamboyant stuff, like
Listening to rap or heavy metal, etc
I'm not a jock
I am in art
I have a wide variety of friends
I don't openly have a girlfriend
etc, etc.
The list goes on, but I'm not the typical male teenager. (which is in fact my best quality, I believe)
The reason I elaborated on this part is because It's happened before to me - I've sort of lead people on when I didn't want to. It is kind of weird when a friend feels one way about you and you don't reciprocate that. (And in one instance, it sort of sucks, because the girl is now "indefinitely upset with me" because I..... didn't.... um..... feel the same way about her)
Nevertheless.....
I care about Jose a lot, but I don't want that to be misinterpreted. I want to support him through his times of.... self discovery, but I don't want to get so involved that he attaches to me to strongly. Conversely, he is a good person, and I wouldn't mind having a friend of his caliber, regardless of his sexual orientation. Just as long as we stay "plutonic".
A very small part of me is tempted to totally go into preacher-mode about how females are (body, and mind, and mind!). But really, I understand it is his choice. And I don't know how I feel in regards to "is one homosexual from birth, or is it a choice" thing...... (I guess I feel it is more a personal choice than a birthright.... but that's not the point yet).
But I wonder if it is within my station to advocate for heterosexuality? I mean, it is what I feel is right for myself.
What I am trying to say is, would it be right to suggest heterosexuality, as in, is it okay for me to slightly push him in that direction? Or should I be secular and independant as a friend could be?
I don't know what is best for the situation. I suppose there it is a matter of my defiinition for a good friend;
(harshly and crudely put) would a good friend let his friend go gay?
Or would a good friend allow his friend a completley free frame of mind?
It's not quite like "would a good friend let someone drive drunk", or do drugs, or commit a crime.
According to my personal definition, being gay isn't a crime or a bad thing. I don't prefer it, and I think that being heterosexual is the more natural and "better" way to be. And maybe I have a slight prejudice against it, I don't know.
I think the best thing is perhaps to state where I stand, my own personal views about homosexuality, say my peice, and that's all. Other than that, I believe that being a good friend entails sticking with someone no matter what, accepting people. And I definitilye have respect for loyalty...
So I guess my general issues for discussion are:
How should a friend act in my situation
- completely secular acceptance
- sligt push for personal belief
- a mix of both
- something else
How can I still be friends plutonically with someone who is possibly turning towards homosexuality?
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And as an aside, another issue came to mind. Jose is definitely someone that would be good in a marriage, yet I can see where his homosexual nature might come from. I wonder why it is that someone of such quality is turned away from heterosexual relationships? I know Jose is more or less a sensative person, but I consider myself sensative in some ways, too. Speculating, I can see Jose as someone who has had a lot of confidence issues, and his sensativity may have been misused or abused over the years, but that is speculation purely.
But it is odd....
I think it is a highschool thing, really, but Jose as a person is the ideal kind of guy you would want in a more or less exclussive relationship. But he is not the typical male teenager. I suppose he may be a little shy, but that not that big of a deal. I'm shy in some ways. Anyhow... it is strange that such a caliber person does not receive more attention from the ladies. But I think that a lot of people in my school are a bit shallow..... cliques and status are clearly defined, and it is a very wealthy district, so there is a lot of competition and status play all over...
And perhaps this is the issue: Since no one acknowledges and respects Jose's qualities, he ponders turning homosexual in hopes of finding someone to better understand him? But even there, I don't see him as understanding his own self worth... it's strange.
This last few paragraphs especailly are speculation and theory, and are sort of just as an aside, my own crazy mind working and thinking here. The main part is above, and if you read this post, that's what I hope to really generate a response. But any comments will be great.
My friend, let's call him Jose (lol... it's late, and that seems funny for him.... sorry) has recently told me about his uncertainty of sexual orientation.
He says he's been dealing with this for a few years, and I can believe him. It's been a rough time, because he really isn't sure, he says, just what he is. He doesn't have a problem with being bi or gay, he is just frustrated in not knowing who he is.
I am good friends with Jose, and I respect him a lot as a person. It was "odd" having him say that, but I wasn't too surprised, and essentially it doesn't change how I think about him, considering all that it implies. There is one thing I am concerned about, though.
I like Jose a lot, he's a great guy. But I am not... I don't fancy men. I do not have much of an issue with homosexuality, honestly, just as long as I am not involved. It doesn't do anything for me. But that is who I am, and I respect that, as I respect other people being who they are.
The concern is, I hope Jose doesn't see our friendship as me being very nice to him, as in, I don't want to lead him on by being considerate and mature about this and secular. I still would like to maintain friendship with him, and even though specifics might change based on his future actions, he is still Jose.
But I just don't want to seem like I am open to having a "relationship" with Jose, because I'm not.
I suppose the best thing is to be upfront about that from the beginning, and that sort of is the bottome line
But it is a touchy subject around most, like Jose says. I still want to be friends, but I'm wary....
I say this because I can see myself as coming across as possibly appearing gay within the context of my school.
I dress well
I don't hit on girls excessivly
I don't do a lot of the typical male flamboyant stuff, like
Listening to rap or heavy metal, etc
I'm not a jock
I am in art
I have a wide variety of friends
I don't openly have a girlfriend
etc, etc.
The list goes on, but I'm not the typical male teenager. (which is in fact my best quality, I believe)
The reason I elaborated on this part is because It's happened before to me - I've sort of lead people on when I didn't want to. It is kind of weird when a friend feels one way about you and you don't reciprocate that. (And in one instance, it sort of sucks, because the girl is now "indefinitely upset with me" because I..... didn't.... um..... feel the same way about her)
Nevertheless.....
I care about Jose a lot, but I don't want that to be misinterpreted. I want to support him through his times of.... self discovery, but I don't want to get so involved that he attaches to me to strongly. Conversely, he is a good person, and I wouldn't mind having a friend of his caliber, regardless of his sexual orientation. Just as long as we stay "plutonic".
A very small part of me is tempted to totally go into preacher-mode about how females are (body, and mind, and mind!). But really, I understand it is his choice. And I don't know how I feel in regards to "is one homosexual from birth, or is it a choice" thing...... (I guess I feel it is more a personal choice than a birthright.... but that's not the point yet).
But I wonder if it is within my station to advocate for heterosexuality? I mean, it is what I feel is right for myself.
What I am trying to say is, would it be right to suggest heterosexuality, as in, is it okay for me to slightly push him in that direction? Or should I be secular and independant as a friend could be?
I don't know what is best for the situation. I suppose there it is a matter of my defiinition for a good friend;
(harshly and crudely put) would a good friend let his friend go gay?
Or would a good friend allow his friend a completley free frame of mind?
It's not quite like "would a good friend let someone drive drunk", or do drugs, or commit a crime.
According to my personal definition, being gay isn't a crime or a bad thing. I don't prefer it, and I think that being heterosexual is the more natural and "better" way to be. And maybe I have a slight prejudice against it, I don't know.
I think the best thing is perhaps to state where I stand, my own personal views about homosexuality, say my peice, and that's all. Other than that, I believe that being a good friend entails sticking with someone no matter what, accepting people. And I definitilye have respect for loyalty...
So I guess my general issues for discussion are:
How should a friend act in my situation
- completely secular acceptance
- sligt push for personal belief
- a mix of both
- something else
How can I still be friends plutonically with someone who is possibly turning towards homosexuality?
----------------------------
And as an aside, another issue came to mind. Jose is definitely someone that would be good in a marriage, yet I can see where his homosexual nature might come from. I wonder why it is that someone of such quality is turned away from heterosexual relationships? I know Jose is more or less a sensative person, but I consider myself sensative in some ways, too. Speculating, I can see Jose as someone who has had a lot of confidence issues, and his sensativity may have been misused or abused over the years, but that is speculation purely.
But it is odd....
I think it is a highschool thing, really, but Jose as a person is the ideal kind of guy you would want in a more or less exclussive relationship. But he is not the typical male teenager. I suppose he may be a little shy, but that not that big of a deal. I'm shy in some ways. Anyhow... it is strange that such a caliber person does not receive more attention from the ladies. But I think that a lot of people in my school are a bit shallow..... cliques and status are clearly defined, and it is a very wealthy district, so there is a lot of competition and status play all over...
And perhaps this is the issue: Since no one acknowledges and respects Jose's qualities, he ponders turning homosexual in hopes of finding someone to better understand him? But even there, I don't see him as understanding his own self worth... it's strange.
This last few paragraphs especailly are speculation and theory, and are sort of just as an aside, my own crazy mind working and thinking here. The main part is above, and if you read this post, that's what I hope to really generate a response. But any comments will be great.