Ok, I don't really know where to start with this as I haven't quite managed to get my head around it yet. Until a few months ago I was quite happy getting on with my life, not jumping around, laughing happy, but not unhappy enough to make any major life changes. I've been married for 19 years, have 2 kids, nice home, etc. Then I met someone who totally blew my mind and now he's gone, I don't know how to find him and I'm lost. Nothing ever happenned between us we just spent a lot of time together talking, but right from the start I felt comfortable with him, like I'd known him for years and I could tell him anything. I've never felt this way about any other man before, even my husband (which is something I feel guilty as hell about). Anyway, I know that I should just move on, try to forget, but I can't. I have to keep myself busy and around people all the time as when I'm alone, I start to think, and before I know it I'm in floods of tears, I haven't cried so much in years. There are songs I can't listen to anymore without getting upset, this man is my first thought when I wake and my last thought before I sleep. I am a very strong person, when I decide to do something I always do it, but I can't do this. I recently told a close friend about this as she has gone through the same thing, her advice was to just go with the flow, see what happens, he might come back, he might not. But I don't know how long can I cope with feeling like this, I'm not used to not being in control.