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I'm a horrible friend. Selfish and spoiled, etc. and all the rest.
For a long time now I've always had a bit of self-doubt when it came to my friendships. I would always worry if I was a good enough listener, if I did anything I could to help and be accomodating, if I was in fact being the best friend I could be. Well, tonight I got an email from a supposed close friend of mine I've had since high school, and some of what she wrote really hurt me.
-She said I was "selfish, spoiled, lazy and prissy" and that "these are the reasons you will grow to be a very lonely old woman."
-She said I use people at my convinience then throw them away when I don't need them anymore. (I see NO evidence of this when I look back on things, but maybe I'm not the best one to judge.)
-She said all of my conversations are one-sided, filled with my little melodramatic problems. Quote: "Get a life, no one cares!"
There was more, but I don't want to rewrite it all here. I am very upset by this email. I always thought I was a good friend, but maybe some of the worrying I've done in the past wasn't for naught and I should have tried improving on those things while I had the chance. Now if I lose this certain circle of friends, I will have only a few friends left here in Michigan, but most are far away and I wouldn't get to see them very often.
I want to see someone, talk to them about ways I could improve, but how do you begin with something like this? I'm an only child, so I'm sure that has something to do with the selfishness, but you can't go on these excuses all of your life, at some point you have to grow up.
I'm confused, and very depressed.
For a long time now I've always had a bit of self-doubt when it came to my friendships. I would always worry if I was a good enough listener, if I did anything I could to help and be accomodating, if I was in fact being the best friend I could be. Well, tonight I got an email from a supposed close friend of mine I've had since high school, and some of what she wrote really hurt me.
-She said I was "selfish, spoiled, lazy and prissy" and that "these are the reasons you will grow to be a very lonely old woman."
-She said I use people at my convinience then throw them away when I don't need them anymore. (I see NO evidence of this when I look back on things, but maybe I'm not the best one to judge.)
-She said all of my conversations are one-sided, filled with my little melodramatic problems. Quote: "Get a life, no one cares!"
There was more, but I don't want to rewrite it all here. I am very upset by this email. I always thought I was a good friend, but maybe some of the worrying I've done in the past wasn't for naught and I should have tried improving on those things while I had the chance. Now if I lose this certain circle of friends, I will have only a few friends left here in Michigan, but most are far away and I wouldn't get to see them very often.
I want to see someone, talk to them about ways I could improve, but how do you begin with something like this? I'm an only child, so I'm sure that has something to do with the selfishness, but you can't go on these excuses all of your life, at some point you have to grow up.
I'm confused, and very depressed.
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