Angel said:Thanks guys............. I am having a hard time with this. You are right though Blue_Angel... I just gotta go with it, or I don't. It's just really hard to know which route to take.
I am paranoid. That much I know for sure.
I feel like I am a nuisance to them, and almost even a burden now... It's complicated. I will be 'meeting' this person in two weeks in the flesh for the first time. I want to be excited, but after all these months... the last week has been different. More silence... less emails... this person even forgot my Bday... though hugely apologised for it. I dunno. That's the sincerity I am questioning.
This isn't some internet romance either in case you guys are wondering... it's a different situation and I am losing my mind.
I so want to be accepted. Too much for my own good.