maycocksean
Rock n' Roll Doggie Band-aid
I admit that I cheated a little. I went back and found Irvines original journal entry, copied and pasted it and used his 100 list as a jumping off point for mine. Often times I followed the same theme as his, and when I couldn't I just put in something completely different.
It was an enjoyable exercise and I look forward to getting to know some of you better as well.
1. i hate my middle name.
2. i don’t think I have a “best feature.” I’m one of those “whole is greater than the sum of its parts” guys.
3. i have been around 25 lbs to 30 lbs underweight my entire life. At 5’11” I have weighed about 126 lbs for most of my adult life and have only now hit the mid-130s. I am perfectly healthy.
4. i spent the early years of my life on a farm in Oregon.
5. My first U2 show was in Japan in 2006.
6. We paid over a $1000 to ship our dog here from Saipan, the island in the middle of the Pacific where we used to live.
7. i do not own a flat screen TV, a smartphone, or more than one suit. I wish I did.
8. i often wish I still lived in Saiapn, but when i actually did live in Saipan. . . well, I was glad I wasn’t living in the States.
9. i do not have good memories of elementary school.
10. i feel unappreciated at work despite the fact that i routinely work 10-12 hour days
11. i wear lots of Old Navy. Virtually everything I’ve bought in the past five years is from that store
12. i am obsessed with packing in as money movies and novels into my summer break as I possibly can.
13. i am a very loyal customer. I will go out of my way to keep going back to the same place if I’m happy with my experience there.
14. my favorite place in Europe is Innsbruck, Austria.
15. i have been to Australia three times and wouldn’t mind living there.
16. I was part of an ensemble cast of TV pilot for a series called “State of Liberty.” Look for the title “Looking for America” on Amazon.
17. i spend too much money on my students.
18. i often feel that my life started the bottom and has just gotten progressively better from there. I’m very much an optimist.
19. i am a freak for schedules. I even schedule my free time and have done so since I was a kid. And yes, I mean a written schedule.
20. i love to cook, but I’m not a real cook. I just follow recipes meticulously and I never taste-test my own cooking. I especially love baking pies and my apple pie and peach cobbler are legendary.
21. i have a hard time understanding how everyone can’t recognize how amazing U2 is the way that I do
22. i want to visit every continent before i die
23. The year I spent on a remote island in the Pacific as a student missionary teacher between my sophomore and junior of college was the hardest and best of year of my life and completely changed the course of my life.
24. i am embarrassed to admit that I think I’m smarter than most people (but not smarter than most people on FYM.)
25. i have never done anything to “treat” my hair. This was a mistake when I had dreads. Now I just keep it short enough that I don’t even have to brush it.
26. People treated me differently when I had dreadlocks. Young people treated me better, older people eyed me with suspicion.
27. When I got my passport renewed in 2004 I was horrified at the toll the years had taken. I didn’t feel much different at 30 than I did at 20 and didn’t think I looked any different. I was wrong.
28. When I took my 8th graders to the Bahamas last month it was the first time I’d seen the ocean since we returned to Saipan to visit more than a year ago. I felt like I was seeing an old friend.
29. when i was a kid, i once spent all day, literally 12 hours, playing Moon Patrol. Beyond a late night session of Tekken 3 in 1999, I have never played any other video games to speak of.
30. I have never been drunk. I’m not convinced that I’ve missed much.
31. I haven’t been bored since the winter of 1994 when I was snowbound alone in my grandparents’ house for three straight days with no TV and nothing but old Readers Digest to read.
32. When I go on a trip I start mentally planning my wardrobe in detail as much as a week in advance. The actual packing goes quickly because by the time I begin I know exactly what I’m taking with me.
33. When people ask me where I’m from, I don’t know what to say: Where I was born (Portland, Oregon), where I grew up (Orlando, Florida), or my family heritage (Trinidadian)
34. i worry about failing to raise my son well.
35. i hold unreasonably high standards for myself, but tend to give other people a break.
36. i say what I mean. I don’t just “lose it” and say things I don’t mean for which I have to apologize later. I tend to assume other people are the same which has caused problems for me (particularly with my boss).
37. i really like living in the mainland United States, but i don't want to stay here for the rest of my life, though i wouldn't mind if i could live in Hawaii.
38. I tend not to lay blame, and I expect others to return the courtesy. I’m deeply irritated when they do not.
39. I’ve been happily married for 14 years on the 27th of this month.
40. When Harry Met Sally might be my favorite movie ever
41. I believe the in the Truth of When Harry Met Sally that men and women cannot be friends because the sex part always gets in the way. Ironically I still have women friends and sex has not got in the way (though I’d be lying if at least once however briefly the thought hadn’t flitted through my mind—which is why I still believe in that Truth).
42. at the end of the day, there are very, very few people i'd trade places with
43. even in my darkest moments, I believe in the ultimate goodness of God.
44. I get a lot of pleasure out of a good pot (a cooking pot that is), but what I really love is a nice little skillet
45. my worst fear is getting a phone call and hearing that my son has been killed or seriously hurt. Being a parent makes you vulnerable in truly scary way.
46. i worked at Dunkin Donuts for six months in high school. I quit when I heard that my boss referred to me as “the cleaning boy” and realized that I was never going to get to make the donuts.
47. I then went on to a very rewarding six years working for Albertson’s Food and Drug store. “Albertson’s, It’s YOUR store.”
48. i want to live a fairly simple life and spend my money on good food and travel and "cultural enrichment" (cooking classes, foreign language classes), but i get really materialistic when i'm inside a mall, but then i never have enough money to buy anything there anyway. I don’t shop very often.
49. i was in Amway for two years. The day we quit I felt like a great weight was lifted from my shoulders. I hated it.
50. i paid off my credit card debt a year ago. I have credit card debt again now.
51. i ‘m terrible at staying in touch with people.
52. in high school I was that guy that was always the girl’s “best friend”, never the “boyfriend.” It sucked.
53. I’m not good with my hands. I don’t fix things, I don’t make things. I could never be surgeon. They’re like two mitts. I hated “hands-on” projects in school and as a teacher I have to remind myself that most of my students are not like me.
54. At 37 I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up. It bothers me that I am not passionate about what I do.
55. i wish i spoke another language—any language really.
56. i sometimes feel as if i am much more considerate of other people than they are to me
57. I wish my mom had forced me to keep taking piano lessons. The fact that I can’t play a musical instrument has left my life much poorer.
58. Zooropa and Pop came to have meaning for me when I was going through a crisis of faith—a crisis that I think has permanently changed me, though my faith remains.
59. i am an excellent driver, am very good maps but have a piss-poor sense of direction.
60. i don’t care for soda. But an occasional Coke is nice.
61. i am obsessed with Survivor.
62. i wish i were thicker-skinned in real life and more willing to “get into it” with people when I need to. My tendency to make peace can be problematic sometimes.
63. nothing makes me feel better than feeling like I have enough time to do the things I need to do without feeling rushed. I rarely feel this way.
64. I have written a novel (unfortunately I’ve not gotten it published yet)
65. When I became a member of Interference, I believed homosexuality was a sin. A gay student of mine had already begun to challenge my beliefs, but it was Melon, Irvine and others on FYM that helped bring about the complete change in my outlook.
66. i have been keeping a pen and paper journal since I was 11 years old. I’m on my 44th volume.
67. I once met Rich Mullins, my favorite singer/songwriter and the first thing I asked him was: “Where is the bathroom around here.” He didn’t know.
68. I appear much more open than I really am, mainly because a lot of things that most people would be reticent to share, don’t really bother me.
69. I would love having a personal assistant, someone who would anticipate my needs and meet them before I have to ask. I know that sounds very entitled, but I often feel that I’m working alone without any help and I get tired.
70. i can think of one person I feel like I hate, but it wouldn’t do to say who as things that you put on the web have a way of getting back to people.
71. i taught myself to swim when I was senior in high school. I did it as an excuse to visit the home of a friend (a girl, see #52) who was not speaking to me. She had a pool and I practiced every other day. Her parents were glad to see me even if she wasn’t.
72. i sometimes felt guilty claiming to be a missionary in Saipan. I felt like we had such a great life, it seemed like I should be sacrificing more rather than gaining so much in terms of quality of life if I was a “real” missionary.
73. There are some people who can be fine seeing their parents once a year. Though I love my family, I am one of those people.
74. I don’t know my roots.
75. i don't believe in a soul.
76. my least favorite sound is nails on a chalkboard
77. i hate cockroaches. That is one thing I definitely do NOT miss about Saipan.
78. You know how people like to say “I’m not very religious, I’m more spiritual.” Well, I’m not particularly spiritual, but I enjoy religion.
79. i truly believe God prevented from me marrying the wrong person. There was more than one occasion in my life when I think I would have rushed into marriage with someone and I know I would have been miserable (see #52 & #71).
80. i worry that I am not close enough to God.
81. I have never found it particularly thrilling to be frightened as entertainment. As such I’ve never had any interest in horror films. My two year old son on the other hand already loves playing “The giants are coming!”
82. My parents are divorced, my father was a physically and emotionally abusive religious fanatic, I was a nerd in elementary school, and unable to date in high school, yet I feel like my life has been pretty good. I don’t have many complaints. I feel lucky.
83. The 2003-2004 school year was not a great one for me. Whenever I’m inclined to complain about work now, I remind myself it isn’t nearly as bad as that year.
84. I was pretty miserable for most of my senior year in high school. I had this morbid idea that I would not live through the end of 1992.
85. being married to my boss for seven and a half years when my wife was principal of our school in Saipan taught me that I don’t know as much as I think I do.
86. The proudest moments of my life have been when I have stood up for myself in some way.
87. I can count on one hand the students I’ve taught who did poorly because of real difficulty learning and I can count one hand the students I’ve taught whose poor behavior was due in large part to ADHD.
88. In high school, four friends and I created a secret identity called the Joker, and through a series of pranks succeeded in terrifying and mystifying our school for most of the school year. To pull off the deception I lied to several people who I considered very close to me, and when they found out they were deeply hurt (see #71). I know I should regret this but I do not. I do regret that we revealed our identity. I would love it if today people were still wondering who the Joker was.
89. Because of my involvement with the Joker, I have been involved in a car chase (my neighbor saw me sneaking out of my house in the middle of the night wearing black and a hood and thought I was a burglar. He hopped in his van and chased us. When I finally realized who was after us, we pulled over and I went back and begged him not to tell my mom.
90. I support stricter gun control laws due to the easy access to guns and the foolish things my friends and I did with them when we were in high school.
91. i almost never buy books
92. There are no photographs on display anywhere in our house. I regret this but I’m too busy and cash-strapped to do much about it.
93. I hate a messy house. But our house is virtually always a disaster area. This is one of the compromises of marriage.
94. I think about my mortality a lot. Yet I assume I will live a long life—only recently have I begun to worry that cancer or something similar could take me or my wife earlier.
95. I never used to get why the person who is about to be killed in the movies begs “I’ve got kids.” I get it now. If my life is ever in danger, my first thought will be of my son and I would want to live for his sake.
96. I don’t think I’m very strong. I’m fairly certain that a major tragedy like losing my wife or son would destroy me.
97. The dumbest thing I ever did from a physical standpoint was to leap out of a moving vehicle (it looked easy in the movies).
98. There is no equivalent to the art of the alcoholic drink in the tee totaling world.
99. i wish my self of today could travel back in time and set my past self at ease, and give him advice, but unfortunately I don’t think I’d listen to myself.
100. I want to meet Jesus Christ. Someday, I believe I will.
101. There is another person out there with my same first and last name. The white guy from New Jersey? That’s not me. His father has tried several times to talk to me on Skype and I’ve had to explain to him that I’m not his son.
It was an enjoyable exercise and I look forward to getting to know some of you better as well.
1. i hate my middle name.
2. i don’t think I have a “best feature.” I’m one of those “whole is greater than the sum of its parts” guys.
3. i have been around 25 lbs to 30 lbs underweight my entire life. At 5’11” I have weighed about 126 lbs for most of my adult life and have only now hit the mid-130s. I am perfectly healthy.
4. i spent the early years of my life on a farm in Oregon.
5. My first U2 show was in Japan in 2006.
6. We paid over a $1000 to ship our dog here from Saipan, the island in the middle of the Pacific where we used to live.
7. i do not own a flat screen TV, a smartphone, or more than one suit. I wish I did.
8. i often wish I still lived in Saiapn, but when i actually did live in Saipan. . . well, I was glad I wasn’t living in the States.
9. i do not have good memories of elementary school.
10. i feel unappreciated at work despite the fact that i routinely work 10-12 hour days
11. i wear lots of Old Navy. Virtually everything I’ve bought in the past five years is from that store
12. i am obsessed with packing in as money movies and novels into my summer break as I possibly can.
13. i am a very loyal customer. I will go out of my way to keep going back to the same place if I’m happy with my experience there.
14. my favorite place in Europe is Innsbruck, Austria.
15. i have been to Australia three times and wouldn’t mind living there.
16. I was part of an ensemble cast of TV pilot for a series called “State of Liberty.” Look for the title “Looking for America” on Amazon.
17. i spend too much money on my students.
18. i often feel that my life started the bottom and has just gotten progressively better from there. I’m very much an optimist.
19. i am a freak for schedules. I even schedule my free time and have done so since I was a kid. And yes, I mean a written schedule.
20. i love to cook, but I’m not a real cook. I just follow recipes meticulously and I never taste-test my own cooking. I especially love baking pies and my apple pie and peach cobbler are legendary.
21. i have a hard time understanding how everyone can’t recognize how amazing U2 is the way that I do
22. i want to visit every continent before i die
23. The year I spent on a remote island in the Pacific as a student missionary teacher between my sophomore and junior of college was the hardest and best of year of my life and completely changed the course of my life.
24. i am embarrassed to admit that I think I’m smarter than most people (but not smarter than most people on FYM.)
25. i have never done anything to “treat” my hair. This was a mistake when I had dreads. Now I just keep it short enough that I don’t even have to brush it.
26. People treated me differently when I had dreadlocks. Young people treated me better, older people eyed me with suspicion.
27. When I got my passport renewed in 2004 I was horrified at the toll the years had taken. I didn’t feel much different at 30 than I did at 20 and didn’t think I looked any different. I was wrong.
28. When I took my 8th graders to the Bahamas last month it was the first time I’d seen the ocean since we returned to Saipan to visit more than a year ago. I felt like I was seeing an old friend.
29. when i was a kid, i once spent all day, literally 12 hours, playing Moon Patrol. Beyond a late night session of Tekken 3 in 1999, I have never played any other video games to speak of.
30. I have never been drunk. I’m not convinced that I’ve missed much.
31. I haven’t been bored since the winter of 1994 when I was snowbound alone in my grandparents’ house for three straight days with no TV and nothing but old Readers Digest to read.
32. When I go on a trip I start mentally planning my wardrobe in detail as much as a week in advance. The actual packing goes quickly because by the time I begin I know exactly what I’m taking with me.
33. When people ask me where I’m from, I don’t know what to say: Where I was born (Portland, Oregon), where I grew up (Orlando, Florida), or my family heritage (Trinidadian)
34. i worry about failing to raise my son well.
35. i hold unreasonably high standards for myself, but tend to give other people a break.
36. i say what I mean. I don’t just “lose it” and say things I don’t mean for which I have to apologize later. I tend to assume other people are the same which has caused problems for me (particularly with my boss).
37. i really like living in the mainland United States, but i don't want to stay here for the rest of my life, though i wouldn't mind if i could live in Hawaii.
38. I tend not to lay blame, and I expect others to return the courtesy. I’m deeply irritated when they do not.
39. I’ve been happily married for 14 years on the 27th of this month.
40. When Harry Met Sally might be my favorite movie ever
41. I believe the in the Truth of When Harry Met Sally that men and women cannot be friends because the sex part always gets in the way. Ironically I still have women friends and sex has not got in the way (though I’d be lying if at least once however briefly the thought hadn’t flitted through my mind—which is why I still believe in that Truth).
42. at the end of the day, there are very, very few people i'd trade places with
43. even in my darkest moments, I believe in the ultimate goodness of God.
44. I get a lot of pleasure out of a good pot (a cooking pot that is), but what I really love is a nice little skillet
45. my worst fear is getting a phone call and hearing that my son has been killed or seriously hurt. Being a parent makes you vulnerable in truly scary way.
46. i worked at Dunkin Donuts for six months in high school. I quit when I heard that my boss referred to me as “the cleaning boy” and realized that I was never going to get to make the donuts.
47. I then went on to a very rewarding six years working for Albertson’s Food and Drug store. “Albertson’s, It’s YOUR store.”
48. i want to live a fairly simple life and spend my money on good food and travel and "cultural enrichment" (cooking classes, foreign language classes), but i get really materialistic when i'm inside a mall, but then i never have enough money to buy anything there anyway. I don’t shop very often.
49. i was in Amway for two years. The day we quit I felt like a great weight was lifted from my shoulders. I hated it.
50. i paid off my credit card debt a year ago. I have credit card debt again now.
51. i ‘m terrible at staying in touch with people.
52. in high school I was that guy that was always the girl’s “best friend”, never the “boyfriend.” It sucked.
53. I’m not good with my hands. I don’t fix things, I don’t make things. I could never be surgeon. They’re like two mitts. I hated “hands-on” projects in school and as a teacher I have to remind myself that most of my students are not like me.
54. At 37 I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up. It bothers me that I am not passionate about what I do.
55. i wish i spoke another language—any language really.
56. i sometimes feel as if i am much more considerate of other people than they are to me
57. I wish my mom had forced me to keep taking piano lessons. The fact that I can’t play a musical instrument has left my life much poorer.
58. Zooropa and Pop came to have meaning for me when I was going through a crisis of faith—a crisis that I think has permanently changed me, though my faith remains.
59. i am an excellent driver, am very good maps but have a piss-poor sense of direction.
60. i don’t care for soda. But an occasional Coke is nice.
61. i am obsessed with Survivor.
62. i wish i were thicker-skinned in real life and more willing to “get into it” with people when I need to. My tendency to make peace can be problematic sometimes.
63. nothing makes me feel better than feeling like I have enough time to do the things I need to do without feeling rushed. I rarely feel this way.
64. I have written a novel (unfortunately I’ve not gotten it published yet)
65. When I became a member of Interference, I believed homosexuality was a sin. A gay student of mine had already begun to challenge my beliefs, but it was Melon, Irvine and others on FYM that helped bring about the complete change in my outlook.
66. i have been keeping a pen and paper journal since I was 11 years old. I’m on my 44th volume.
67. I once met Rich Mullins, my favorite singer/songwriter and the first thing I asked him was: “Where is the bathroom around here.” He didn’t know.
68. I appear much more open than I really am, mainly because a lot of things that most people would be reticent to share, don’t really bother me.
69. I would love having a personal assistant, someone who would anticipate my needs and meet them before I have to ask. I know that sounds very entitled, but I often feel that I’m working alone without any help and I get tired.
70. i can think of one person I feel like I hate, but it wouldn’t do to say who as things that you put on the web have a way of getting back to people.
71. i taught myself to swim when I was senior in high school. I did it as an excuse to visit the home of a friend (a girl, see #52) who was not speaking to me. She had a pool and I practiced every other day. Her parents were glad to see me even if she wasn’t.
72. i sometimes felt guilty claiming to be a missionary in Saipan. I felt like we had such a great life, it seemed like I should be sacrificing more rather than gaining so much in terms of quality of life if I was a “real” missionary.
73. There are some people who can be fine seeing their parents once a year. Though I love my family, I am one of those people.
74. I don’t know my roots.
75. i don't believe in a soul.
76. my least favorite sound is nails on a chalkboard
77. i hate cockroaches. That is one thing I definitely do NOT miss about Saipan.
78. You know how people like to say “I’m not very religious, I’m more spiritual.” Well, I’m not particularly spiritual, but I enjoy religion.
79. i truly believe God prevented from me marrying the wrong person. There was more than one occasion in my life when I think I would have rushed into marriage with someone and I know I would have been miserable (see #52 & #71).
80. i worry that I am not close enough to God.
81. I have never found it particularly thrilling to be frightened as entertainment. As such I’ve never had any interest in horror films. My two year old son on the other hand already loves playing “The giants are coming!”
82. My parents are divorced, my father was a physically and emotionally abusive religious fanatic, I was a nerd in elementary school, and unable to date in high school, yet I feel like my life has been pretty good. I don’t have many complaints. I feel lucky.
83. The 2003-2004 school year was not a great one for me. Whenever I’m inclined to complain about work now, I remind myself it isn’t nearly as bad as that year.
84. I was pretty miserable for most of my senior year in high school. I had this morbid idea that I would not live through the end of 1992.
85. being married to my boss for seven and a half years when my wife was principal of our school in Saipan taught me that I don’t know as much as I think I do.
86. The proudest moments of my life have been when I have stood up for myself in some way.
87. I can count on one hand the students I’ve taught who did poorly because of real difficulty learning and I can count one hand the students I’ve taught whose poor behavior was due in large part to ADHD.
88. In high school, four friends and I created a secret identity called the Joker, and through a series of pranks succeeded in terrifying and mystifying our school for most of the school year. To pull off the deception I lied to several people who I considered very close to me, and when they found out they were deeply hurt (see #71). I know I should regret this but I do not. I do regret that we revealed our identity. I would love it if today people were still wondering who the Joker was.
89. Because of my involvement with the Joker, I have been involved in a car chase (my neighbor saw me sneaking out of my house in the middle of the night wearing black and a hood and thought I was a burglar. He hopped in his van and chased us. When I finally realized who was after us, we pulled over and I went back and begged him not to tell my mom.
90. I support stricter gun control laws due to the easy access to guns and the foolish things my friends and I did with them when we were in high school.
91. i almost never buy books
92. There are no photographs on display anywhere in our house. I regret this but I’m too busy and cash-strapped to do much about it.
93. I hate a messy house. But our house is virtually always a disaster area. This is one of the compromises of marriage.
94. I think about my mortality a lot. Yet I assume I will live a long life—only recently have I begun to worry that cancer or something similar could take me or my wife earlier.
95. I never used to get why the person who is about to be killed in the movies begs “I’ve got kids.” I get it now. If my life is ever in danger, my first thought will be of my son and I would want to live for his sake.
96. I don’t think I’m very strong. I’m fairly certain that a major tragedy like losing my wife or son would destroy me.
97. The dumbest thing I ever did from a physical standpoint was to leap out of a moving vehicle (it looked easy in the movies).
98. There is no equivalent to the art of the alcoholic drink in the tee totaling world.
99. i wish my self of today could travel back in time and set my past self at ease, and give him advice, but unfortunately I don’t think I’d listen to myself.
100. I want to meet Jesus Christ. Someday, I believe I will.
101. There is another person out there with my same first and last name. The white guy from New Jersey? That’s not me. His father has tried several times to talk to me on Skype and I’ve had to explain to him that I’m not his son.