I have been having trouble getting to sleep this past week. There was a major meltdown the first of the week, alot of comforting going on.. but even after the comforting and hugs I simply stared at the ceiling.

Same thing happened last night. But nothing major really happened last night, so it's weird.

I hate being tired and not being able to sleep.

There is apparently an older couple that lives upstairs. They must have hardwood floors because every...

I already couldn't sleep tonight when I went to bed, tossed and turned and then my boyfriend got really sick.. then my feet started to spasm and cramp. Yeeesh.

So sitting here at 5:30am, boyfriend sleeping thankfully... me, wide awake. Haven't a clue why.

Might change the name of Tuesday to Snoozeday, because I think that's all it will amount to.

What the frack.. a crow!

I had a flashback that happened at the worst possible time the other night. The worst. When the hell is this going to end?

Why the hell do I have to feel guilty for making people feel uncomfortable because I told them something in confidence, they pretend to understand and then stab us in the back. Now trying to act all nice again, like I've forgotten. And I'm not going to forgive easy and let it slide off my back, because I really don't like that. I don't like how society has become....

Well, I've managed to snag myself a head cold so I've been dealing with that today. Amongst other things, things that I think I'm doing better with and then they are back in my face again screaming "YOU THINK YOU'RE DONE DEALING WITH THIS... WELL I DON'T THINK SO" I'm seeing faces again and images. If only I could simply forget.

I had my last scheduled counseling session last week. It went very well, especially after I told her what I had done. It was something that she...

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