It's done and dusted now and I'm glad I stuck to my guns and actually completed it. I was 5th best fundraiser (and had some additional donations come in afterwards that would have lifted me officially up to 3rd) I was surprised by how many people wanted to support me. I think there was an obvious shock factor. Neely? Water? Now? I'd pay money to see that. It was a hook that worked.

Yesterday I wore my shorts and t-shirt from the moment I got up until after the dip itself when I...

It's here. I am dwelling in it. Nick and I sang 40 and the Out of Control and then Kite. So many opportunities this year... I feel that this year may be the one where I find some potential within myself. After many years of finding myself useless, this could be the big one. *crosses fingers* For one thing, I'm still here. In August I made a plan to make sure I wasn't here at this time, but the greater powers had more in store for me. But it is past new years now, I am STILL HERE. That to me, is...

Oh seriously.. does this ever end? I'm going to stop posting in the confessions threads, I'm probably bringing people down. I'll just leave my vents here. I should be over this by now, that's what people in real life keep telling me. I do good for a bit, but then it's falter, falter. And when I try to say what's bugging me, I just get the same response. It's over, it's over..

It loops through my mind every damn day. It never ended. It probably never will. Counseling, it didn't do...

This is our new kitty Samus. We adopted it today from the animal shelter. She's a real sweetheart. Quiet, gentle and very loving. Constantly purring. She's a doll. Not sure on actual age, but under 2 years.. maybe even 1 year. So hopefully she'll be around with us for a good chunk of our lives

A liquid.

That's all it takes

To feel free

To unwind

beyond all

You didn't want to go this far did you?


You didn't expect this?

But this is where it goes.

And you tremble

and you mouth the words of songs you hear


and noone notices

noone hears

So how do you expect others to save you

When...