You know somethin, I was watching this series thats on in NI/UK called Fat Friends.........I barely watch it, but its about 'large' pple struggling with everyday life of trying to cut down/have a great social life/love life, etc - ya know, its a drama (Im sure all other NIers and UKers will know what Im talking about).......but last night's episode touched me.....
That girl Lisa (actresses name who does the You've Been Framed), played her role so well....my heart went out to her....
Basically her character works in a Garden Centre and a new girl applied for a job but it was someone who used to be at her school and apparantly bullied her endlessly about her size.....(in actual fact Lisa is large but she is absolutely bubbly and lovely on TV when presenting - more important), but at first this girl gets the job and is ok at first.
Then the skirts shorter and the bullyin starts again, now in the jobworld.......and Lisa's character is upset and starts crying and hiding. Then comes a stage where a famous gardener comes to see the centre and get a presentation that was supposed to be down by.........(oh I tink Ive got her name now) Rebecca, but its SHARON (the bully) who fuks it up, by making sure Rebecca feels bad about her size.........
(and there was a scene where Rebecca was in her room just starin at herself in the mirror sayin over and over to herself how she deserves love, and gets up and turns the mirror round so that she cant see the person she hates anymore....
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anyway Sharon walks round with the famous guy, and there was a point where he was to get up on a stage and Rebecca was meant to present something to him, but Sharon was a bitch and had loosened screws around (sabotaged) the stage...........so refused to get up with him, knowing so.......then Rebecca comes in and they all turn round and her folks urge her up and everyone applauds her - but uve guessed it, the stage collapses making it look like it was meant to be the size of the girl making it collapse and she falls into pond with pots tipping on top of her.
She runs off.......and my heart goes out to her.......boy did I want to kill that bitch!
Anyway her parents and a male colleague burst into the house and find her out the back smashing all her pots and the greenhouse, and the male colleague tries to talk to her, urging the parents to go back in. And poor Rebecca is sitting there, soaked and miserable and crying over Sharon over everything, how much she hates herself over her size, how she thinks shes ugly, etc etc (u get the picture) - and I truly started crying......the tears just came........I was too touched emotionally and not often does a drama do that........
it was too depressing to watch ..............but my heart went out, and I just wanted to jump in and hug her for ages and ages and ages..............
it was the saddest Ive seen yet.....
and esp that she has feelings for the male colleague who was there...........but he said he liked her and that she was one of the nicest pple hed ever met.
and it was awful,,,,,,,,she said how all her life Sharon kept bullyin her at school and pple said ignore it and how could she ignore someone constantly telling them they were fat and gross and etc.......and how she found something in gardening, how she enjoyed planting things and watching them grow, she found something to love........and.............gawd the whole scene was soooooo sad......
I wanted to take every person in the world who gets laughed at, or picked on cause of their size and squish them tight....
...and tell them that I love them and that everything will be alright......
for even though Im skinny, I too know what bullying is like........
oh boy, it was awful...
In the end the colleague helped her find strength to fire her...and she did.......and Rebecca and the fella walked away, and then he took her hand.....and it was beautiful moment.....
I felt so happy for her.......
*sigh*