What would I look for in a church?
A solid dose of reality, even if it's a very cold, hard dose. I want to be told that my Christian duty is not to just rock up to church on Sunday morning and give intellectual consent to what's being sung and said. I want to be made to feel called to do more, to act on my faith, to actually crucify my self and follow Christ. In other words, I don't want a wishy-washy church, or a comfortable middle-class church, but one that lives the Christian faith. Intelligently, too - deep theology may not always be appropriate on Sunday morning, but some other easily accessible option should be available for those who not only want meat, but a lot of it. Preferably involving a diversity: something that's willing to objectively discuss, consider, and contemplate everyone from St. Augustine to Søren Kierkegaard to John Calvin to G. K. Chesterton.
Two pedantical things I'd like to find in a church but probably never will:
- A very welcoming atmosphere for those who are rather shy. Bear in mind I'm very strict in saying that, as I have bordered on sociophobia before. What makes going to church really hard for me is that religion is an extremely personal part of my life and I don't feel comfortable practising it in the company of strangers, even really friendly ones. I want to feel like I'm actually with friends. If I had my way, church would be a small group of about the 20 people with whom I feel the most at ease.
- The music. I place a lot of value in worship, especially as I have often used it in the past to worship in private, but when I go to church, I'm always disappointed by the songs. So many of them are modern flaky songs that are blindly optimistic. Praise is fantastic, but it should not be ignorant of reality. Now, again personally, I would love a church if it ripped out Until The End Of The World or Yahweh - my non-U2 suggestions probably wouldn't go down well in any church (find me a church that's willing to play Porcupine Tree's Halo and I will faint from shock).
But if I can't have something like that, I'd love some of the old hymns and such, or at least something of great substance. I want to feel like I'm hearing music of worth that allows me to connect with God.
I was going to write more - and I was going to write what I said just better - but I've just got back from work and it's bloody horrible so I simply don't feel up to it. Sorry.