Originally posted by foray:
Sometimes I write something or have a life experience that is so precious and deep that I feel if I share it with other people it is therefore 'cheapened'.
I believe "specious" is the term...something that seems to be beautiful but is not really so...sorta like a trend/fad. I've thought the same thing, too. There's this trend nowadays to have an online journal or expression of one's feelings and thoughts online for the world to see (if they can find it). Before I started it, I knew I wouldn't want to reveal everything because, to me, it's not something for me. I'm not one of those artsy type who get off throwing my most intimate and personal experiences all over the wall. There are people like that...I believe they do it to get some attention right away...therefore, it
becomes more of a "whoring" situation instead of an honest opening up and sharing with people.
However, there are some issues that I need to address in writing just so I can get my thoughts organized...like what writing should be....not some draft for a best-seller....just a record of being alive and aware.
I find that if I write something that I'm going through at that very moment...nothing makes sense...so, I feel that looking back on things...however "deep" they seemed at the time...turn out to be either deeper or shallower....thus, the feeling that I get too of my experiences being somehow "cheap" on paper...nothing really happened, in other words, to warrant a recitation on paper...or once I see it as black and white I find out how bad a writer I am
)...I couldn't really express what I felt because it was TOO DEEP.
Some people will argue that it is in fact nobler to share it as it may help or inspire people and I do believe that, too.
One can't predetermine the effects of one's writings on another person. However, I can be pretty sure that noone on earth experiences anything truly UNIQUE that at least ONE other person has not experienced before.
To further complicate things, I do want to share certain things to get it off my chest or maybe just advise someone. Still, I can't help feeling that doing so somehow violates or dishonours the experience/art.
How many of you feel this way, or better yet, feel the opposite? And why?
foray