sulawesigirl4
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Lately I have found myself feeling incredibly frustrated and guilty. There is SO much going on in the world, so much heartbreak, hunger, evil...so many people who need so much, and yet I live in such comparative luxury and worry about stupid things like what I'm going to eat for lunch and what's on television tonite. Having grown up as I did in a 3rd world country and having seen firsthand the difference that can be made in people's lives by just a few willing hands, I'm finding it harder and harder to justify my existence here. How can I sit back and not DO something? But what can I do? Where to start?
I feel awash in a sea of materialism and although I'm not trying to judge society as a whole, I am beginning to feel suffocated as I slowly see myself buying into it all. I don't know. This is probably pretty incoherent. But I just feel like I have been given so much. One week of my salary could feed and clothe a family in the Congo. But I'll probably spend it on things I don't need.
I read about the lives of people like Ghandi, and I feel so ashamed of myself. My petty concerns and my selfishness. There is a world out there and I have seen a good deal of it, and yet here I am mired in college debt and spinning my wheels. Sometimes the American dream looks like a yawning trap waiting to snap shut on me. Go to school to get a good job to pay for the debt you rack up at school. Then go into debt for a car, then a house, then spend life a slave to the bills for these things.
I just don't know. I feel as though I cannot justify a life lived solely for myself. How can I when there is a sea of humanity that is in so much need?
I don't know why I'm posting this...and least of all here. But I guess I'm wondering if any of you have felt the same, and if so what you've done about it or what you think.
I feel awash in a sea of materialism and although I'm not trying to judge society as a whole, I am beginning to feel suffocated as I slowly see myself buying into it all. I don't know. This is probably pretty incoherent. But I just feel like I have been given so much. One week of my salary could feed and clothe a family in the Congo. But I'll probably spend it on things I don't need.
I read about the lives of people like Ghandi, and I feel so ashamed of myself. My petty concerns and my selfishness. There is a world out there and I have seen a good deal of it, and yet here I am mired in college debt and spinning my wheels. Sometimes the American dream looks like a yawning trap waiting to snap shut on me. Go to school to get a good job to pay for the debt you rack up at school. Then go into debt for a car, then a house, then spend life a slave to the bills for these things.
I just don't know. I feel as though I cannot justify a life lived solely for myself. How can I when there is a sea of humanity that is in so much need?
I don't know why I'm posting this...and least of all here. But I guess I'm wondering if any of you have felt the same, and if so what you've done about it or what you think.