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Old 11-02-2001, 04:34 PM   #1
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How close have you ever been to dying?

I know this is an awful topic, but I'm not feeling well these days and i'd just like to know. Did you think you were actually gonna die? What did that feel like? Did you experience anything supernatural, like many who were "dead" for a short time claim to have?
For me, i guess it was 2 years ago this month. I came down with some sort of weird virus( i still dont know for sure what it was), didnt have a Dr or any money to spend on one, so, as usual, i decided to tough it out.
Thing was, i couldnt swallow much without choking, so i couldnt eat and drinking was pretty scary too.
I went over 5 days without fluids of any kind. That night, i was feeling a bit better so i drank a little something and even was able to take a couple bites of pizza.
Then around midnight i suddenly got very tired so i decided to lie down and go to bed. I laid my head down, and this horrid feeling started to come over me. I dismissed it as simple tiredness, but it got worse. And worse. Suddnely it felt, quite literally, as though the life was leaving my body. Like my soul was being sucked out. Scared the f***ing s*** out of me! I stood up, reeling, and started weakly shrieking "I'm dying, i'm dying!" My mom came in and I told her to call 911. But then the odd sensation started to leave me and i stopped her. But it came back, and i told her to call . Once again, it subsided a bit. This continued for some time, till suddenly i started feeling ill in a different way, and promptly got very sick.
I did not want to go to the hospital, because i hadnt been in an ER in over 14 years, and the last time i was treated terribly because we were poor, and i figured they would do it again- that is, not treat me because of not having any insurance. I didnt realise the laws had changed, and that now, all hospitals MUST treat you regardless of your ability to pay.(Though it doesnt always happen...)

So my mom called around trying to find one close by. She did, but i still stubbornly refused to go. Around 5 am, I finally gave in and took a taxi to the ER. This was 5 hours after the onset of my most serious symptoms.
Well, the DR assured me i wasnt gonna die, though they actually freaked a bit when i told them how long i'd gone without water,lol.
They wanted to give me a saline IV, but i hate IVs so i asked them if i'd be ok without it, they said yes, and i decided to go without. Bad move. Extermely stupid thing to do. I went in and out of feeling like i was on the verge of croaking for over 3 weeks. My vision/hearing would fade a bit, everything. And the weakness was unbelievable. It was much worse when i laid down - that seemed to bring about the death sensation, so i slept sitting up. It was awful, i missed Bruce Springsteen in concert, and the Moody Blues because of it. Damn!
The other times i have been close to death were the Northridge earthquake in '94, a shootout, when i missed catching an ill fated train, and in April, when i met the band and just thought i was gonna die!

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My name is MISS MACPHISTO...I'm tired and i want to go HOME...

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Old 11-02-2001, 05:28 PM   #2
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How are you feeling now? Any better?

I was once actually in a situation where I believe to this day that Satan tried to kill me. I won't elaborate, but it was very frightening indeed.
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I've mostly recovered from that awful experience. I do have this weird problem with low lung volume though, that developed during that time, and its driving me nuts. No one seems to be able to even attempt to find out what it is, or even care. I have had a chest x ray though, and it is not my lungs that are the problem. they said i need an endoscopy.
Also i have several other health problems that have cropped, up, including heart palpitations, migraine headaches(which dont run in my family that i'm aware of,and I've never had those before), vertigo, and a lot of other things.I'm a basket case,lol.
I'm awful concerned, it could be serious and i just dont know what to do. Its not easy for me to get even one problem checked out, let alone several.
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On Sept 11 that WHOLE day I was literally going around school and telling everyone that I loved them. It was REALLY weird. I seriously thought it was all over.

Also last year I had 4 or 5 panic attacks a month for like 6 months. I don't know why, but each time I SWORE I was about to die.

When I was about 8 my brother got caught in the undertow at the beach, and I pulled him out. He was 9 and I was 8! The lifeguard didn't even see. He was about to drown

Now I'm sad! BACK TO PLEBA with me!

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Very close.

A year and a half ago, I got in a very bad car wreck(actually flipped my car over three times). I'm not the most religious person you'll ever meet, but I know somebody was definitely looking over me that night because 9 out of 10 times, the person would have died(that's what paramedics told me). Since then, I have a new outlook on life. I live everyday like it could be my last. I never hold back anymore. I also don't drive like an idiot anymore!

BTW, I hope you feel better Miss Macphisto!

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One night, about 3 weeks before I moved out of my parents house, I went over to a friends. We were going to go out to the movies and grab a late bite but not stay out too late because we both had work the next day. I had previously gone out to dinner beforehand and was feeling a little ill, but I went to my friend's house anyway to get ready for a night out. An hour had passed and my stomach cramps had gotten so severe. I thought, "Well, I have food poisoning" and decided not to go out but to crash at my friend's house because I had gotten too ill to drive home. All night long I was sick, and I have an iron stomach so the experience was unusual for me. There was a sharp twisting sensation in my abdomen that was excruciating and every time I moved it felt like someone was puching me with gloves coated in glass shards. By 4 in the morning I hadn't gotten any sleep and my friends were worried. My mother had called and I couldn't even talk to her. About 3 hours later I was dehydrated and passing out my friend called my mom and they both carried me out to the car and drove me to the hospital.

I was released that day, only to be readmitted a couple of days later because the constant pain was unbearable. I was diagnosed with 4 different things, every test came back inconclusive.

Finally, 2 weeks later I had managed to move out of my house. The pain was better but I still felt sick to my stomach all the time. I was on a cocktail of antibiotics and anti-inflammatory pills but they didn't seem to be helping the pain. I had no money, no insurance so I wasn't going to go back to the doctor any time too soon, so I thought.

I came home from work and the pain was pretty bad, really bad actually. I thought a nice warm soak in the tub would do me some good, so I drew a bath. I got in the tub and the pain hit me like a white light and I doubled over. I quickly got out, threw on some clothes, and went to lay down on the bed and wish the pain away. Our cat, a stray, was pawing me and meowing madly. When I closed my eyes he'd start shrieking - but eventually I couldn't keep my eyes open any more. The pain had become so bad, my whole body went numb. I felt a weird buzzing in my head and my body felt completely weightless. After a little while I couldn't feel anything - not the bed I was lying on, the cat nuzzling on my face, my feet, my hands, my stomach cramps, nothing. It was so odd, because I felt like I was losing consciousness but I wasn't. I was aware of everything that was happening to me. The ceiling in my room seemed to disappear and became engulfed in a soft white haze and I suddenly felt very warm and the pain was gone. The cat's meows became more muffled and soon all I could hear what appeared to sound like the blood rushing through my veins and the thud of my heart beating. I thought, "I'm ready and at least the pain is gone." It's so weird, because I knew I should've been scared, but at that time I was so relieved that there was no more pain that nothing else seemed to matter. I seemed to drift in that haze in my room and the next thing I knew I was looking into my roommate's face. She had come home minutes earlier and heard the cat in the bedroom, so she came in to see what was the matter. She said she had been trying to wake me up for about 5 minutes but she couldn't "revive" me. When I got my bearings I became sick, and my friend (who was with me during the first incident) called my mom again and took me to the hospital.

It turned out that my appendix had ruptured around the time I went to take the bath, but had been swollen and seeping toxins (leaking) since my first attack. The antibiotics and anti-inflammatory pills managed to keep me alive for those 2 long weeks, but finally my body just gave out.

I owe my ex roommate big time!

Sorry bout the long story here...
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wow some of these stories have given me shivers...

Well for me, about 2 years ago, I got in a wreck 2 months after I first started driving. I was not at fault, I was just driving home from a friend's house, minding my business. Then a truck drives right into the side of me and I was shoved into a lane of oncoming traffic. I was so frozen, and just sat there for a bit thankful that a car didn't happen to be crossing at that moment because they were moving pretty rapidly. I didn't experience any actual sensations of life leaving my body, but I did have a few experiences flash before my eyes there.

I was listening to "Daddy's Gonna Pay For Your Crashed Car" at the moment of impact... freaky!
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Whoah, Adam's Mistress!! I was rushed into the hospital on May 1, 1983, and they removed my appendix BARELY in time. An hour later and it would have ruptured. This was 3 months after I went to the doctor with a pain in my "stomach" and the doctor said the pain was "in my head," that I was stressed about my grandma passing away 3 weeks earlier, and I should see a psychologist! Yeah, right!

Anyway, to answer the question: There were 2 incidents. On May 1 (there goes that date again!), 1991, I was hit by a car while walking across the street (yes, I had the light and the right-of-way!). I was bruised up and my upper left arm was fractured. My backpack saved me from a head injury. Well, a week later, I was on my way to meet a friend for lunch, and I was still on pain meds from the accident. I was sorta dazed, and as I started to cross the street (green light in my favor), a truck driver started honking at me furiously. It freaked me out and I went back to where I started. Then I realized what was going on. I had heard the siren, but it didn't "register" as I was spaced out on Vicodin. An ambulence went flying by. It would have hit me and I wouldn't be here!

The other time was when a mentally-ill neighbor almost pushed me over a 15th-floor balcony rail in September, 1986. I screamed for help and two male neighbors came out and got that creep off of me.

These days, I WANNA LIVE! BTW, I have long since recovered from my apprehensions of the date May 1, the sound of screeching brakes and sirens, and heights! (The Hancock Building in Chicago was awesome...I went there when I went to Chicago to see U2 last month!)

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I totally forgotten about it!

I was very close. I don't remember exactly when it happened. I was about 12.

My mom took me and my sis to a "summer trip" from the company she is working ( Now I work there as well). We were sharing table with a friend of mom, and she had 2 kids. I got bored sitting there so I stood up and sat on the edge of the swimming pool. Later on, the oldest kid of mom's friend, came to me and said:

Hey, do you wanna check if the pool is deep?
I said no (because I CAN'T SWIM) and turned away from him. He followed me and repeated the question. I was telling him to back off, when suddenly he PUSHED ME into the swimming pool. I was horrified and thinking: I have to SAVE my self from drowning. I tryed to swim, I tryed to raise my hands for someone to see me, I was battling to keep my head outside the water. I kept doing all that for about 3 minutes (Trust me: It feels like an eternity) and when I got tired and couldn't resist, I said to myself: This is it, I'm gonna die. The memories of all my beloved came to mind. It's odd because at that point I didn't felt scared or sad. I felt so free, so peaceful. I was ready to drown, when (Oh my God, I have tears in my eyes now ) I was ready to drown, when as a miracle, I felt someone pulling my hair up above. I swear it didn't hurt, but in my mind I said: I'm gonna live! I'm gonna live!

I was still conscious. People were surprised because they had seen me in the water, but they thought i was Playing (idiots! )and I lasted a long time in the water without asphixiating or swallowing water.

OMG! I just realized I'M ALIVE! , what a beautiful feeling. I've been so stupid having worries about things I cannot change. Thanks for this thread. It has enlighted me
*grateful*

*Wishing all of you who had been close to die or in a great danger, a lot of joy and happiness in your lifes, for you and your beloved*



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wow.
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A life-guard pulled me out of the water half-dead (actually I prefer half-alive) when I was about 7.
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I have a problem with unexplained fainting...I just faint suddenly without really any warning. People around me usually think I'm dead because it's hard to find my pulse sometimes, and I don't breathe normal when I'm unconscious. Sometimes I hit my head when I fall too, so people freak out and think I have a massive head injury or something.



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Hmmm....Bonochick, is that like narcolepsy? weird.

Four years ago I was diagnosed with cancer [all better now]. The funny thing is that the form I had doesn't occur that often and mostly in men. Yet I had it and two of my friends who are also women were diagnosed with it. Very odd.

Then two months ago I was in my office across the street from the Trade Center when all that crap happened. I was outside and two blocks away when the first tower collapsed and really thought I was going to die right then and there. I ended up sprinting three blocks until I got to a building to duck in to.

Cancer has more of a prolonged "Hmmmm....I could die." effect whereas running from 110 stories of collapsing building has a more jolting "I'm gonna die now!" kind of effect. Very weird both ways.

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I can imagine both of those scenarios only too easily... Wow. What a surreal feeling it would be.

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Look...look what you've done to me...You've made me poor and infamous, and I thank you...

My name is MISS MACPHISTO...I'm tired and i want to go HOME...

"Well you tell...Bonovista,that i said hello and that my codename is Belleview" - Bono before opening night of Anaheim Elevation concert
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Originally posted by Bonochick:

I have a problem with unexplained fainting...I just faint suddenly without really any warning. People around me usually think I'm dead because it's hard to find my pulse sometimes, and I don't breathe normal when I'm unconscious. Sometimes I hit my head when I fall too, so people freak out and think I have a massive head injury or something.

Bonochick...I had a friend at one time who fainted or blacked out some years ago. The doctors thought she was in a diabetic coma. Several years after that, a doctor discovered that she had a BRAIN TUMOR!!! That was more likely what caused her blackouts.

Miraculously, they removed the brain tumor (which was benign, but HUGE!) She healed from that surgery faster tham any other diabetic would have.

Moral of the story: If one doctor can't explain it, find another one and get another opinion. If the second opinion comes up blank...get a THIRD one!



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