missmacphisto
Refugee
I know this is an awful topic, but I'm not feeling well these days and i'd just like to know. Did you think you were actually gonna die? What did that feel like? Did you experience anything supernatural, like many who were "dead" for a short time claim to have?
For me, i guess it was 2 years ago this month. I came down with some sort of weird virus( i still dont know for sure what it was), didnt have a Dr or any money to spend on one, so, as usual, i decided to tough it out.
Thing was, i couldnt swallow much without choking, so i couldnt eat and drinking was pretty scary too.
I went over 5 days without fluids of any kind. That night, i was feeling a bit better so i drank a little something and even was able to take a couple bites of pizza.
Then around midnight i suddenly got very tired so i decided to lie down and go to bed. I laid my head down, and this horrid feeling started to come over me. I dismissed it as simple tiredness, but it got worse. And worse. Suddnely it felt, quite literally, as though the life was leaving my body. Like my soul was being sucked out. Scared the f***ing s*** out of me! I stood up, reeling, and started weakly shrieking "I'm dying, i'm dying!" My mom came in and I told her to call 911. But then the odd sensation started to leave me and i stopped her. But it came back, and i told her to call . Once again, it subsided a bit. This continued for some time, till suddenly i started feeling ill in a different way, and promptly got very sick.
I did not want to go to the hospital, because i hadnt been in an ER in over 14 years, and the last time i was treated terribly because we were poor, and i figured they would do it again- that is, not treat me because of not having any insurance. I didnt realise the laws had changed, and that now, all hospitals MUST treat you regardless of your ability to pay.(Though it doesnt always happen...)
So my mom called around trying to find one close by. She did, but i still stubbornly refused to go. Around 5 am, I finally gave in and took a taxi to the ER. This was 5 hours after the onset of my most serious symptoms.
Well, the DR assured me i wasnt gonna die, though they actually freaked a bit when i told them how long i'd gone without water,lol.
They wanted to give me a saline IV, but i hate IVs so i asked them if i'd be ok without it, they said yes, and i decided to go without. Bad move. Extermely stupid thing to do. I went in and out of feeling like i was on the verge of croaking for over 3 weeks. My vision/hearing would fade a bit, everything. And the weakness was unbelievable. It was much worse when i laid down - that seemed to bring about the death sensation, so i slept sitting up. It was awful, i missed Bruce Springsteen in concert, and the Moody Blues because of it. Damn!
The other times i have been close to death were the Northridge earthquake in '94, a shootout, when i missed catching an ill fated train, and in April, when i met the band and just thought i was gonna die!
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Look...look what you've done to me...You've made me poor and infamous, and I thank you...
My name is MISS MACPHISTO...I'm tired and i want to go HOME...
"Well you tell...Bonovista,that i said hello and that my codename is Belleview" - Bono before opening night of Anaheim Elevation concert
[This message has been edited by Miss MacPhisto (edited 11-02-2001).]
For me, i guess it was 2 years ago this month. I came down with some sort of weird virus( i still dont know for sure what it was), didnt have a Dr or any money to spend on one, so, as usual, i decided to tough it out.
Thing was, i couldnt swallow much without choking, so i couldnt eat and drinking was pretty scary too.
I went over 5 days without fluids of any kind. That night, i was feeling a bit better so i drank a little something and even was able to take a couple bites of pizza.
Then around midnight i suddenly got very tired so i decided to lie down and go to bed. I laid my head down, and this horrid feeling started to come over me. I dismissed it as simple tiredness, but it got worse. And worse. Suddnely it felt, quite literally, as though the life was leaving my body. Like my soul was being sucked out. Scared the f***ing s*** out of me! I stood up, reeling, and started weakly shrieking "I'm dying, i'm dying!" My mom came in and I told her to call 911. But then the odd sensation started to leave me and i stopped her. But it came back, and i told her to call . Once again, it subsided a bit. This continued for some time, till suddenly i started feeling ill in a different way, and promptly got very sick.
I did not want to go to the hospital, because i hadnt been in an ER in over 14 years, and the last time i was treated terribly because we were poor, and i figured they would do it again- that is, not treat me because of not having any insurance. I didnt realise the laws had changed, and that now, all hospitals MUST treat you regardless of your ability to pay.(Though it doesnt always happen...)
So my mom called around trying to find one close by. She did, but i still stubbornly refused to go. Around 5 am, I finally gave in and took a taxi to the ER. This was 5 hours after the onset of my most serious symptoms.
Well, the DR assured me i wasnt gonna die, though they actually freaked a bit when i told them how long i'd gone without water,lol.
They wanted to give me a saline IV, but i hate IVs so i asked them if i'd be ok without it, they said yes, and i decided to go without. Bad move. Extermely stupid thing to do. I went in and out of feeling like i was on the verge of croaking for over 3 weeks. My vision/hearing would fade a bit, everything. And the weakness was unbelievable. It was much worse when i laid down - that seemed to bring about the death sensation, so i slept sitting up. It was awful, i missed Bruce Springsteen in concert, and the Moody Blues because of it. Damn!
The other times i have been close to death were the Northridge earthquake in '94, a shootout, when i missed catching an ill fated train, and in April, when i met the band and just thought i was gonna die!
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Look...look what you've done to me...You've made me poor and infamous, and I thank you...
My name is MISS MACPHISTO...I'm tired and i want to go HOME...
"Well you tell...Bonovista,that i said hello and that my codename is Belleview" - Bono before opening night of Anaheim Elevation concert
[This message has been edited by Miss MacPhisto (edited 11-02-2001).]