Its official #1251

zooropamanda · Aug 16, 2002

why is all this rship stuff so damn hard?

*sigh

Diemen · Aug 16, 2002

I'm with ya, Manda

Maybe cause someone upstairs wants to make sure we're willing to work hard when we find That Someone?.

zooropamanda · Aug 16, 2002

*sniff
i do i do
mm well maybe

it all just churns me up so much. i swear im going to have ulcers soon. maybe i try too hard, maybe thats the problem. maybe i think about it too much, maybe my mind and heart are just a big mess and neither can keep up with the other. god, im rambling, someone slap me!

Sicy · Aug 16, 2002

Diemen · Aug 16, 2002

First off...*smack* You can thank me later.

zooropamanda said:
*sniff
i swear im going to have ulcers soon.

Are you sure those aren't from the wild drinking binges that get you thrown out of pubs? :evil:

maybe i try too hard, maybe thats the problem. maybe i think about it too much, maybe my mind and heart are just a big mess and neither can keep up with the other.

I know what ya mean. There's the whole thing where you don't want to appear too eager, despite your heart practically leaping out of your chest, but then you don't want to appear too casual, or else they might think you're not interested. It's all a big mess that I wonder if I'll ever make sense enough of to find myself something special that'll last more than a few months.

zooropamanda · Aug 16, 2002

that's exactly it.
exactly.

not the ulcer part, we aussies arent all boozers :tongue:

and the non eagerness is out of protecting yourself also, fear of getting hurt, etc
but then you can turn around and its all too late and things aren't what they seemed at all.
i just wish i didn't wear my heart on my sleeve so much. its like we know what we want but then we almost want it so bad that its far too frightening to actually find,and if we do, we push it away!
humans are so nutty.

zooropamanda · Aug 16, 2002

i think its very fitting that you have my fave jeff song quoted in your sig btw
and yes thanks for the smack

Sicy · Aug 16, 2002

I wish I could just duplicate what I have and give it to everyone. :slant:

Granted it took me 30 years to get it and I had to go through crap after crap before I got it but it was worth it.

* sends good love vibes into the room *

Lilly · Aug 16, 2002

this is my lame attempt at giving you a smile, i hope it works.

zooropamanda said:
it all just churns me up so much

zooropamanda · Aug 16, 2002

lilly, that pic could SOOOOOOO be taken the wrong way :silent:

Screaming Flower · Aug 16, 2002

zooropamanda said:
lilly, that pic could SOOOOOOO be taken the wrong way

*coughpornalertcough*

zooropamanda · Aug 16, 2002

u have porn radar

where did diemen go? he was the only one bringing any class to my serious thread. :slant:

Screaming Flower · Aug 16, 2002

i'm sorry zoomanda. i am certainly feeling this thread though and i share your frustration. :slant:

Diemen · Aug 16, 2002

zooropamanda said:
u have porn radar

where did diemen go? he was the only one bringing any class to my serious thread.

It was becoming too classless for even me to fix, so I left.

I went off to grab me some food, actually.

I love my sig as well. It holds a very strong personal meaning for me. The person it refers to is very very dear to me.

Lilly · Aug 17, 2002

i tend to declass a lot of things.

zooropamanda said:
lilly, that pic could SOOOOOOO be taken the wrong way

sorry za. i didn't mean to declass your thread. i just wanted to cheer you up a bit.

zooropamanda · Aug 17, 2002

lol i think i be the one doing the declassing
just ask screamer

Diemen · Aug 17, 2002

I've never joined in on this, so here goes...

I'll declass your face! :rant:

There, I feel as if I've achieved a new level of posting now.

Carry on...

zooropamanda · Aug 17, 2002

haha
it was good to finally chat to you matey

Sicy · Aug 17, 2002

zooropamanda said:
where did diemen go? he was the only one bringing any class to my serious thread.

What about me. :sad:

zooropamanda · Aug 17, 2002

oops sorry, yes u were offering love and comfort too, sicy.
i blame it all on the canadian screamer.

Sicy · Aug 17, 2002

damn canucks.

:silent:

ACROB@T · Aug 17, 2002

..for the past 7 months I have touched both sides..I've never ever felt more detached and distant, and so uplifted when it has hit me so strongly..~from a direction I never intended or thought possible~*