UnforgettableLemon
Rock n' Roll Doggie ALL ACCESS
Given my recent breakup, I'm going through a lot of really, really mixed emotions right now. Most recently, I've been thinking a lot about how much scarring I may have done to Col. She'd never really been in a serious relationship before, and I'm only now realizing how much it affected her, even if she never came to love me. I remember how glowing and happy she was when I first met her, so vibrant and full of life. Lately, it's just been stress, tears, and fears. I realize it's not entirely my fault, that going to Japan, being faced with the uncertainty of life after college, and the stresses of her changing identity have a lot to do with things, but I feel like I came in at a rough time in her life and really pushed her too hard to make the relationship work. Even if I never verbalized it, the amount of affection I showed had to put some pressure on her. I'm not happy with myself for pushing something I somehow knew wouldn't work, but I'm not happy with her for letting me do so despite her claims to be completely open with me about anything that came up. This song sort of expresses all of that, and it's been on my mind today.
Weezer
"Butterfly"
Yesterday I went outside
With my momma's mason jar
Caught a lovely Butterfly
When I woke up today
Looked in on my fairy pet
She had withered all away
No more sighing in her breast
I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to
I didn't mean to do you harm
Everytime I pin down what I think I want
It slips away - the ghost slips away
I smell you on my hand for days
I can't wash away your scent
If I'm a dog then you're a bitch
I guess you're as real as me
Maybe I can live with that
Maybe I need fantasies
A life of chasing butterfly
I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to
I didn't mean to do you harm
Everytime I pin down what I think I want
It slips away - the ghost slips away
I told you I would return
When the robin makes his nest
But I ain't never coming back
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Weezer
"Butterfly"
Yesterday I went outside
With my momma's mason jar
Caught a lovely Butterfly
When I woke up today
Looked in on my fairy pet
She had withered all away
No more sighing in her breast
I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to
I didn't mean to do you harm
Everytime I pin down what I think I want
It slips away - the ghost slips away
I smell you on my hand for days
I can't wash away your scent
If I'm a dog then you're a bitch
I guess you're as real as me
Maybe I can live with that
Maybe I need fantasies
A life of chasing butterfly
I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to
I didn't mean to do you harm
Everytime I pin down what I think I want
It slips away - the ghost slips away
I told you I would return
When the robin makes his nest
But I ain't never coming back
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry