Nevermind, I'll leave after this:
You know I don't mean it in an insulting way. You don't have to believe me but I do which is why I don't want to get aggressive with you. I find you to be a compassionate person. You are above this mission to hurt me. You despised what I had/have become but you can't see what you've become? You have become as bad if not worse than I was. The truth is you are the kind of person that everyone likes. You can do no wrong in their eyes. That can be a great thing. Unfortunately, it means no one will help you stop this behavior of yours like they did with me. It pains me to say it but you've become the new Screwtape.
I am not leaving. I don't feel I have to explain why beyond saying that things have changed with me. I hope things change with you. I really do.
I know you don't mean it in an insulting way, that's what makes it worse. I'm not on some mission to hurt you either, but when I find things that make me laugh, I laugh. It's a natural reaction. Again, it's not the most mature way to deal with it, but I'm not a mature guy, so there's that.
As for me becoming "the new Screwtape," Whatever your interpretation of that is, it's grossly mistaken and absurd. I don't know what I have done in particular that sets me apart from everyone else... is it because I'm in U2 Heaven? Beats me.
Look, people can't "change" overnight - it's a gradual thing. In the end, you should be comfortable with who you are and how you express yourself. I'm not going to fool anyone into thinking I know all or don't need to learn anything, we're all growing and maturing at any age... especially ours. The ability to recognize that and actually learn from your past experiences will make you a more knowledgeable and "better person." It doesn't mean you can't be yourself, but it does mean you can be real with people and not this sugary nice to them all of the time. If I have something nice to say to you in particular, I will say it... if I don't, then I don't. You have shown to me, over time, that you lack that ability to learn, and although you may delude yourself into thinking you do, to me, you don't.
In the end, this is one guy's opinion - hopefully fully explained, articulated, and precise. Do I expect you to take any of this truly to heart? No, but that's part of what it's all about. I'm not going to take anyone's "honest" opinion about me unless they're honest to themselves.
Why I typed this all out to you, of all people, I don't know. I expect you to take this post and morph it into something completely off of my point. I feel sympathy for you because you don't know what it is you're talking about and are unable to fully listen to people who try to help you. When you learn to listen, I mean actually learn that, then you might actually "change," but as of right now, I don't see it.
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I apologize to everyone else here for having to read this. And now, I must really be off to bed.
130 posts in a superthread though... holy shit.