Free will. We make our own decisions and bear the consequences, both now and later.
I believe that 'god' is behind all of the circumstances
which god has allowed in our lives. this 'higher power' is defined as love. ultimately good.
there seems to be some kind of balance between you and god, since we're not perfect. the danger lies in ignoring it. making excuses, getting negative, expecting god to play by our rules and reveal himself.
if there is suffering and pain or confusion:
we have free will and can chose to trust god & what god has allowed (and wait and see what happens), or we can chose to walk away from god. ignore god. each time we ignore the truth of love and of god, we harden our hearts. we end up loving less & distance ourselves from god.
this will draw love away from our soul, and since love is the main thing, this is really dangerous and only god knows the specific consequencs.
we can hope in gods mercy.
the thing to avoid is willfully ignoring god/love or willfully hurting others etc.
if you want to be humble, god gives grace.
thank you so much. it's great to summerize my beliefs.