Can I just say that, I think part of the reason you think people don't understand you is that you don't try and understand people. And I know what it is fucking like to live with depression. Holy fucking shit don't get me started. We've all been through some shit, you know? I haven't been through your shit, and you haven't been through mine. That doesn't make you any more valid than me or me any more valid than you. It's the human experience. You're not a unique and beautiful snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everything else....
You want to reach out, I can tell, but you're not doing it by isolating yourself like that, Screwy. You still feel like you are better than me, and I don't think that's really gonna get us to any common ground.
You can make and maintain friends by talking to them, understanding them, and reaching common ground. Not by running away.