U2002revolution!
War Child
I try to pray, i'm inclined to believe i'm just not good @ it.
All i can think of is "please help".....the thing is i hate,hate,HATE asking for help; but i tried... i just ended up balling. And i hate to cry, i feel so much like a baby (yes, i'm female btw...i bring that up because i assumed you all would think i'm a guy, 'cause you know its only guys that are supposed to not wanna cry...i donno; anyway...)
Its weird, don't get me wrong I believe (even tho I wouldn't say i have the strongest faith), but sometimes, even when i'm praying its like "is there even anyone (God) really listening"I don't know, even tho i believe (take that at what you will) its like "damn, i wish that this life is all there is", i can't explain it, its so hard to comprehend total happiness (i.e. heaven) its like sometimes i think the only total happiness i could have is ultimately death (i won't lie, i don't exactly love life)
sorry for ramblin' (and for this thread), i'm just really tired of struggling w/ every thought that comes into my head
sorry for being so introspective/stupid/whatever.....argh!
fuck life, is it even necessary, for WHAT?
All i can think of is "please help".....the thing is i hate,hate,HATE asking for help; but i tried... i just ended up balling. And i hate to cry, i feel so much like a baby (yes, i'm female btw...i bring that up because i assumed you all would think i'm a guy, 'cause you know its only guys that are supposed to not wanna cry...i donno; anyway...)
Its weird, don't get me wrong I believe (even tho I wouldn't say i have the strongest faith), but sometimes, even when i'm praying its like "is there even anyone (God) really listening"I don't know, even tho i believe (take that at what you will) its like "damn, i wish that this life is all there is", i can't explain it, its so hard to comprehend total happiness (i.e. heaven) its like sometimes i think the only total happiness i could have is ultimately death (i won't lie, i don't exactly love life)
sorry for ramblin' (and for this thread), i'm just really tired of struggling w/ every thought that comes into my head
sorry for being so introspective/stupid/whatever.....argh!
fuck life, is it even necessary, for WHAT?