Starr
The Fly
All your words have really helped me. I cannot express enough. I really re-evaluated myself this weekend. On who am, who I thought I was & what I need to work on. I am not perfect but I am human. I have come to place right now, that yeah I am not very proud of myself but I realized that all I can do is work on what I need to work on to be a better person.
I did alot writing, pages & pages. I woke up this morning to U2 "Beautiful Day" & it is in NYC. The words in the song took on whole new meaning for me. The line " I thought I found a friend to take me out of place" made me cry. But the stuck came on...& I was like wait one second. I only have control over myself, I know how feel, I know what I need to work on & if he wants to try to work on things great & if not, I accept that. I need to stop worrying. It's not easy, that's forsure. I left a message on his V-mail, not once but 2, cause the 1st message was very vague & that's my problem, I have to fully undisclose my intentions & my feelings, so that was second message. I told, I would like to set up time where I can talk to him, I respect & love him to much & i am not proud of myself right but since we work together I want to make sure that this will not effect our working together but I would like to get out before I come face to face on Weds. Just in case I see him & I cry. I asked him to give me a call & well see.
If he doesn't call at all, I can say is I reached out & tried to do the right thing. It might hurt but I have to stop making myself sick about...
whatever will be will be...
AGAIN, PLEBA, I could not have done this with out you, your words of advice, your guidance & of course all the goofy post. Has helped through my darkest hours & has made much more aware & stronger (I hope stronger).
I love you all from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
Starr
I did alot writing, pages & pages. I woke up this morning to U2 "Beautiful Day" & it is in NYC. The words in the song took on whole new meaning for me. The line " I thought I found a friend to take me out of place" made me cry. But the stuck came on...& I was like wait one second. I only have control over myself, I know how feel, I know what I need to work on & if he wants to try to work on things great & if not, I accept that. I need to stop worrying. It's not easy, that's forsure. I left a message on his V-mail, not once but 2, cause the 1st message was very vague & that's my problem, I have to fully undisclose my intentions & my feelings, so that was second message. I told, I would like to set up time where I can talk to him, I respect & love him to much & i am not proud of myself right but since we work together I want to make sure that this will not effect our working together but I would like to get out before I come face to face on Weds. Just in case I see him & I cry. I asked him to give me a call & well see.
If he doesn't call at all, I can say is I reached out & tried to do the right thing. It might hurt but I have to stop making myself sick about...
whatever will be will be...
AGAIN, PLEBA, I could not have done this with out you, your words of advice, your guidance & of course all the goofy post. Has helped through my darkest hours & has made much more aware & stronger (I hope stronger).
I love you all from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
Starr
