Mr. Cat used to be like that as well. I think he finally got a bit of what it does for me earlier this year when my friend died and I was listening to SYCMIOYO alot. I told him this is whats keeping me from completely loosing it and maiming someone. But he still doesn't "get it" He says. He doesn't get how the music can take the pain away. I told him its how I can just let go of stuff sometimes. When they dropped the big bomb a few months back about us not being able to have anymore kids I came home went into the studio and just turned up the music really loud and started just yelling I was so pissed off. He came out and asked me what I was doing. I told him its the only thing I can do to let go of this crap, since you refuse to even face reality or deal with it. He asked me deal with what?! The look on his face was priceless when I yelled "Michael! You remember our son, Michael!!!" First time he ever acknowledge in words that we have three kids. funny thing I think alot of the problems started again when I told him that we couldn't have anymore kids. He doesn't accept the fact that if I got pregnant again it could kill me. He doesn't want to.