Hi Echo...
I don't think there will necessarily be flame wars... because I think you made a valid point...
I think all of us have made valid points one way or another.
Here's how I see it. Don't be so hard on yourself for wanting something you can't have. Not only do we lust after and can't have Larry, Bono, Edge, or Adam (well, Adam's still a head's up because he's not attached to anyone, so we can still try), but there are lots of other things in life that we want desperately but will probably never get. I would love to be a millionaire and live comfortably in a nice home, have a nice car, and be able to write to my little heart's content when I feel like it. However, it's a dream of mine to write, so I won't throw that out, but who knows about being a millionaire one day? It will take a lot of work, guts, determination, and I'm sure I'll end up with a bunch of people not liking me very much along the way.
I have a nice enough truck, I'm happy with it, and I'm happy to be alive. I'm also happy to spend my hard-earned vacation sitting in front of my computer all day in my jammies, reading and writing posts on PLEBA. I have never laughed so hard as I have here. I get to share pictures of a guy I will *never* in my lifetime be as close to as I wish I could be, I get to talk about Larry to people who don't think I'm crazy, and I get to suspend reality for a little while and gaze wistfully at his picture. I have a boyfriend - you wanna know how long I've been dating my boyfriend? 8 1/2 years. I love him to the end of time. He doesn't understand why I'm such a nut, but he loves me just the same.
I guess what I'm trying to say, is don't sweat the small stuff. Don't think that you have a "problem" because you lust after someone who you can't have. It's all in fun and that's what it should be: fun. If it's not fun for you, then I don't know what to say. Everyone obsesses over stuff. Before U2, I was obsessed over the X-Files and David Duchovny. Before that, it was Christian Slater. Your tastes change and you move on... although this U2 thing's been going on for several years now.... ah, well... I suppose I've found my wistful happiness.
I sincerely hope this helps you... I don't want you to think you have a problem because you don't. Don't let your obsession take over and depress you. Make it fun! That's what PLEBA is all about. Remember... it doesn't hurt to dream.
Moonie
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If you ask me, I think it's all about drums.
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"If a student with an accordion had come along, I would've played with them ya know...that was where I was at, I was that desperate to play with somebody."
(Larry, about his Mount Temple days, before forming U2)
*Larry, I played accordion. Can I have a drumstick?*
From the heart, on a blue sign, 11-18-01, Vegas
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Tonight the moon has drawn its curtains
It's a private show no one else going to know
I'm wanting
(If You Wear That Velvet Dress)
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Hit Gurl
[This message has been edited by moon_is_playing_tricks (edited 12-29-2001).]