it was.....differant.... than I totally expected on the actual aniversary.......
I was getting upset about 10 days out, knowing it was approaching.
But all this other stuff the past week...
LAST MON -finding out one of my sis's longeset ( High school) time close friends -who became the partner of an even longer time <Junior High School> frind of hers for at least 23 + yrs...
... AND became a (not as close) seperate friend of mine (becuase we all went together to so many R&R concerts) for 34 yrs
has cancer, was operated on this
past Thurs < she made it through > .
MEANWHILE this
past Weds I went up ( got a ride) into New York State -
real country-side, for the Memorial Service for
my (oldest contious close friendship from college) friend's
partner of 15 plus years, who died 5 weeks or less after he was definetively diagnosed with
aggressive form of bone marrow cancer.
THEN b/c our (sis & I) friend and her partner were ORIGINALLYgoing to see Bruce this past Thurs with my sis and other friend's-- I ended up with one of the tix.
How crazeee is that.
SO
between all the worrying about other people- being between being sad & worried for my friend, and our friend- being
totally exhilarated by the beautful architecture of the church which was
sitting near the very top of a big hill 
scratch: small mountain?) from
whose picture windows behind the altar looked out over valleys and across to other mountains, etc on one of
the most beautiful days of the year so far.
Meeting all people in that community that my friend and her partner knew separately or togther, 5 of whom came up to me after and ( most people knew that they could come up and say things in memory of this person - but I didn't) thanked me & complmented me for the off-the-cuff speech I made about him & her.... made me feel - oh, wow!
THEN
unexpectedly seeing Springsteen/E St Thurs night...
... I was really feeling alot of happiness... (oh yes I did cry for my friend, and our friend) from all of this.
There were songs I chanted/sang through & cried through during Bruce's show, but
I woke up Fri around noon thinking of, then singing "Working On A Dream" - one of my fave songs from Bruce/E ST's new album, which
they played Thurs much to my delight!
It wasn't till I had been in the living room after 1PM and realized it was the hour my sis had called me to say our mom died. Even then I mostly have been mildy sad on & off since Fri.
I was
totally suprised that it wasn't the first thought out of my awaking/awake self on Fri. Maybe it'll get me later
.
I think she would of liked it that I woke up thinking/singing
that particular Springsteen song.
