Train Wreck

[acadiashores]

This is a jumbled up free-verse type thing. It's about a night where I should have died but for the grace of God I didn't


Train wreck

It?s coming
Chugging
Screeching
Nobody can stop it
Not even me

I should know better
Than to drink
When my mind is on him
And my libido is on you

You look like him you know?
Sometimes you even sound like him.
And it only makes me ache for him more
Hold me tonight

One drink
Two drinks
Three drinks
Four?..
Five?.

Blood all over me?
What cops???

BLACK OUT

I?m afraid,
It?s coming,
I can?t go on much longer,
I can?t drink him away,
And I cannot stop the train wreck
That I have become.

 

[Bonochick]

I could really feel that...I feel where you are coming from. Pure and honest. I loved it.

 

[acadiashores]

thanks. I seem to write off the cuff a lot when Im scared about something. Right now my own life scares the Hell out of me. I'm finding myself in some very dangerous situations just because I want to erase my own mind. I'm afraid to stop because if I do I will be forced to deal with things I just can't handle.

 

[Foadie]

That's so beautiful in a painful way...a lot of my poems lately are choppy and wickedly worded...the feeling is kinda like you just have to SPIT out your thoughts before they completely wreck your brain.

I?m afraid,
It?s coming,
I can?t go on much longer,
I can?t drink him away,
And I cannot stop the train wreck
That I have become.

 

[ghetofabu]

Words come to mind when I read things. I thought of confusion and chaos when i read this.

 

[acadiashores]

confusion for sure. I am trapped between the man I lust after and the man I love....and neither one of them want me