LIVING IN EXILE -poem

[passingcat]

INNER EXILE

Inside myself I keep myself hidden
I've been to that place where hurt steals your freedom,
I'm in a place of desolation
That keeps me from exposure to breaking point
I'm lonely but I'm hiding
From all you might find vunerable in me

Up in exile,here I sit
Trapped by my own fears that I might quit,
Hurt steals my freedom
But I stole my freedom too
All because of what you might do

The fear traps me like a held up knife
But if I walk through it I can reach you again?
One step ,two but I go back again
What is it in me I need to regain?

I'm like a bird alone on a roof top
A nightingale without a song,
I sit and watch as you walk along
My spirit was crushed then it squeezed out my song

All that was said all that was done
Did self rejection end my walk
Letting people in, the chatter the talk,
The days of laughter like medicine to the soul
But sudden danger I curled into a ball

Did my sensitive spirit take an inward look?
Did I become blind to my colours
As my mind took control?
And turned out the light that lit up my soul

Up in exile here I sit
My focus is moving away from me,
Enfolded in darkness I long for the light
I suddenly realise I can always take flight.
I'm slowly drowning my thoughts
That hold me in all of this this


I'm drawing me out
Of this inner fight,my spirit is fighting
My mind is taking shape to a better light,
I feel its coming ,the yearning to reunite.

For pain is not worth sitting in darkness
Cliping your wings
And hiding from harshness

Self acceptance was whispered in my ear
What ever they say just don't fear
Fear is a prison that locks you away
You run to escape it
And hide inside it as you run.

What ever it says what ever might come undone
Live in freedom ,live in flight
Never sit alone on a roof top, Join the other birds in flight.

 

[ZeroDude]

Painful truth, isolation of the mind or in a literal sense is not easy to handle, you've wrote a piece with a sentiment that many of us can relate to.

 

[wizard2c]

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Very good writing. Much like a wizard......who can truly understand the isolation of it........connected to the world yet truly alone........no one does call......but you learn to accept it.

carol
wizard2c

 

[For Honor]

You know, I think I've spent more time alone than is actually possible for most people. There have been days, like yesterday, where I barely left my room.


There is a funny thing about isolation, in regards to the literal sense. It is more or less a magnifier, and it can increase parts of your personality. It creates other needs, too. But it is interesting.

Then there is social and intellectual isolation. I still have a very hard time talking to people about interesting things. Kids around here don't care about much at all, so that's why I'm online, that's the reason for my "location". But also, I suppose I could be more outgoing. But then again, I have only so many options to realistically choose from....


Regardless, isolationis a very, very interesting thing. It reminds me of an isolation football play... basically, you put everything in the hands of one person, and how he acts decides how well that play goes. (simplified)

And isolation kind of does that to you - it makes you very accountible for everything you do or do not, puts you under the microscope, per se.



Now, that is definitely a tanget, but, that is definitely something I would say, non the less