i dreamed of violence

[cell]

last night
i had an awful dream
he was in this house,
im standing outside
from the window
i held his hand
his eyes met mine
there was a deep sadness
thinking of what might have been
my fingers still attached to his
i couldnt let go
i was grabbed from behind
taken to across the street
im screaming to let me go
they had the walkies
calling his name
to come outside
with his hands up in the air
like the bitch he is
he told them go fuck their mothers
few hours later
im standing at this house
my eyes are red
a quiet rage in me
staring in disbelief
at what's become of this space
lady besides me says...
it had to be done
i turn around...
looked at her
managed a smile
and without warning
knocked her senseless
fucking bitch dont know
taking one last drag,
i threw my cig on the ground
i walked away
funny in real life i dont smoke
fucking wierdass dreams...
next time i'll stick to heinekens