First Time Here....Be Nice

[EdgeVox]

Tuesday July 27, 2004 3:30 am

Somebody asked me if I knew what I was in my past life,
I answered, "A cowboy or a poet"
I didn't realize how ridiculous that sounded til later that night
Ridiculous in the sense that both represent romantic illusions that involve wandering and philosophy
I long for a sense of purpose
I feel like I'm just killing time
Til I feel something real
It's 3 am on 25th and 3rd Avenue
The Clash are on the radio
And once again I'm lost
Low lit room with smokes and rosary beads
I don't remember how to pray
I don't remember how to love
I can be witty and hold my liquor
I can drink whiskey til dawn
And love a woman til the stars burn
I cling to drinking, fucking, because the thought of being alone with my demons and doubts terrifies me
I'm too tired to walk in tot the sea
but I'd run into towers of fire
Lost my bearings when you left me
And once again I'm lost......

 

[EdgeVox]

Wednesday July 27, 2004 2:15 am

Had a nightmare last night
I tossed in my bed and heard the wooden base creak
I awoke facing darkness
I have never been so afraid
I turned to turn on the light
I couldn't find it
Fumbling and clawing through the darkness
Futility
Lovelorn
Playing hard to get with God rests on my weary shoulders
I've never felt so fucking alone
And I'm okay with that
What does that mean?

 

[EdgeVox]

Sunday August 1st, 2004

City lights and city blues
Little girls, pills and booze
Pick me up some cigarettes
Yeah, I'll never pay you back
Shit clubs and crap singers
Hey that's my kinda rock and roll
Lou Reed singing Bobby Darin
Take another shot, no lime no salt
Yeah, it's starting to sound better to me too
Sweaty lusty embraces in the bathroom
She tastes like tequila to me
Would her boyfriend agree?
I pretend the cracks in the ceiling are stars
As you kiss me on your knees
Hey that's my kinda rock and roll
City lights and city blues
None of it means a fucking thing
All I can think of is you.......

 

[EdgeVox]

Can't sleep again
Lonely and drunk and smoking my mind
Ya got blue eyes and british blues
I'm sorry I walked you home
I'm sorry I didnt' let you go
You'll be twenty-one in two
Somehow you've got everybody fooled
You kissed too many boys that night
I've been drinking ever since
You had sangria and I had a pint
We listened to Patti Smith and smoked a joint
She's singing about roses
And I feel like singing too
I wanna whisper the dirty bottle blues
I wanna taste you and sleep by your side
It's lonelier than usual in here
Got your ghost dancing on my bed
Feel like smoking in bed and passing out
Just to make sure you're the last thing I see before I burn.......

 

[beegee]

Sunday August 1st, 2004

City lights and city blues
Little girls, pills and booze
Pick me up some cigarettes
Yeah, I'll never pay you back
Shit clubs and crap singers
Hey that's my kinda rock and roll
Lou Reed singing Bobby Darin
Take another shot, no lime no salt
Yeah, it's starting to sound better to me too
Sweaty lusty embraces in the bathroom
She tastes like tequila to me
Would her boyfriend agree?
I pretend the cracks in the ceiling are stars
As you kiss me on your knees
Hey that's my kinda rock and roll
City lights and city blues
None of it means a fucking thing
All I can think of is you.......

oh my god.
i love this one so much.

I pretend the cracks in the ceiling are stars
As you kiss me on your knees

so much.

 

[EdgeVox]

How long, love
How long will it be til the stars fall from your eyes
How long til you fade from my glass menagerie
How long til you realize I'm the only one on your side
Darling, I can't tell you sweet nothings
I can't sugarcoat this fall
I'll fall with you
I'll die for you
I'll bleed for you
I love you so much
I can't untaint your past
But I'll bless your future
I miss you so much
I was never good enough
Sweet child, why was my word never good enough
I'll carry you til the stars fall....

 

[beegee]

hey texas, does that say location: mexico?

 

[EdgeVox]

She just downed herself a drink
Gluttonous lovely pariah
Never said you loved yourself
Never said you'd try
Couldn't even listen
Couldn't even pray
Listening to the drunks spread their logic
To anyone who'd listen
Makes perfect sense to me

Your fingers are stained with nicotine and sex
Dropping your purse on purpose
To take another snort
Baby won't you please try
Wouldn't it be nice
Wouldn't it be nice
To live to drink til the skies burn
Baby won't you try...

 

[EdgeVox]

Suicide kings and tequila shots
Blowing kisses to no one in particular
Turn it up, I love this song
Lou Reed, David Allan Coe, and U2
I'm happiest when I'm a fool
I just met you
I love you
I've never loved anyone
Let's go to the ocean
I've got a bottle
You buy the smokes
Fuck the tab
I'll be here tomorrow night anyway
I'm sorry I called you the wrong name
I know I'm a bastard
Come with me anyway
One more drink, no?

 

[EdgeVox]

Sister ablaze
Mother torn asunder
Lover, we had no choice
Running into the storm
Seemed easier when I loved you
Now I'm not so sure
Wish us well
Out of control
Out of our hands
Out of my soul
Tell me my ruin
Tell me my all
Tell me my truth
Tell me my beloved,
Do you still trust me?..

 

[macphisto777]

Reading these poetic verses, they are so Honest and Real they remind me of the lyrical depth and beauty of the Achtung Baby record. This is poetry so powerful and emotional it often moves me in the way that a song can. I don't believe I have ever experienced that before. To be slammed in the chest with just a simple reading of poetry...

 

[macphisto777]

Tuesday July 27, 2004 3:30 am

Somebody asked me if I knew what I was in my past life,
I answered, "A cowboy or a poet"
I didn't realize how ridiculous that sounded til later that night
Ridiculous in the sense that both represent romantic illusions that involve wandering and philosophy
I long for a sense of purpose
I feel like I'm just killing time
Til I feel something real
It's 3 am on 25th and 3rd Avenue
The Clash are on the radio
And once again I'm lost
Low lit room with smokes and rosary beads
I don't remember how to pray
I don't remember how to love
I can be witty and hold my liquor
I can drink whiskey til dawn
And love a woman til the stars burn
I cling to drinking, fucking, because the thought of being alone with my demons and doubts terrifies me
I'm too tired to walk in tot the sea
but I'd run into towers of fire
Lost my bearings when you left me
And once again I'm lost......

If you are not channeling Bono's ghost, I don't know what to believe. Is this a poem or journal entry(not sure which this is...you tell me). Hmmm.

 

[EdgeVox]

If you are not channeling Bono's ghost, I don't know what to believe. Is this a poem or journal entry(not sure which this is...you tell me). Hmmm.

I wrote that while I was in NYC for a month......didn't have a computer so I just jotted stuff in a notebook..

 

[EdgeVox]

Boots strapped tight
Backpack, 3 shirts and cigarettes
Zippo and a compass
I'm fucking out of here..

 

[EdgeVox]

Electricity fills the room
The rain's kicking in
I can hear you smother your smoke in glass
It's dark again and we're still strangers

Sweet angst
Beautiful silence
Fumbling towards something familiar
Even though you're just a beautiful stranger now
Time's made us ghosts

I smile knowingly at the unflinching dead-end of your heart
I laugh nervously at the fact that the same lips I found solace in
Now offer mediocre pleasantries just to pass the time
Is there really all there is to you?
Or was it my illusion to lose?
I hate to dwell but I'm wired and feeling particularly introspective
I'm pretty sure I'm self-obsessed because I'm having a good time smoking in the rain
I'm pretty sure I'm waiting for God to wake me up with pain

Communion is dead
Your altar's are stained
I'm daring you to acknowledge me
I'm trying so fucking hard to provoke you
I'm drowning in my apathatic swells
Good Christ I need to grow the fuck up
Either that or kill myself
Maybe I'll just run..

 

[EdgeVox]

The skies part like reflections of a grey ocean
Sun's on sabbatical
This is the way I like it
It's so cold our noses are red
Either that or we've had too much wine
Haven't been this happy in a while
George Harrison is booming from the stereo
And you've been playing in my head all day
It's always nice to hear you laugh
Even when you don't really mean it
God, I don't know where I'd be without you
You're wearing a silly pinstriped coat
I guess you're just playing "grown-up"
I'm just looking at you
Wondering if this'll last
I guess I'm just playing "cliche"
I love you, but you already know that
So I'll just be quiet and listen to the cold breeze
Seems it always has something to say...

 

[EdgeVox]

The vulgarities of your eyes deceive your otherworldly demurity,
She walked as if being carried by angels over broken glass,
She never could smile like she meant it, more like she just wanted to have something to say,
It's been 5 years and the hurt she gave to me is the most sincere and concrete reality I've ever embraced,
It's as if her parting gift left me with an ambition for despair,
I love feeling this way
The ages take their toll on our faces like the cracks made on a crystal ball being thrown against the same brick wal over and over again,l
I consume impurities to numb myself from the unflinching cold stare of God demonstrating his love with abject cruelty,
I love feeling this way...

 

[EdgeVox]

My ears are ringing
I feel as if I can hear the streetlights in the distance
We've been down this road too many times before
You sound as if you're whispering because you know I don't want to hear it
Everytime you say something that burns I reach for the dial to drown you out
We're driving each other fucking crazy
I choose not to hear you
I choose not to love you
I don't fucking care if you cease to exist
Can't we take this up tomorrow?
Oh shit now you're really upset
You're cursing like a sailor and it's adorable
We both went too far
Clean slate for tomorrow?
I know, I know...
Yeah yeah alright
We both went too far...

 

[EdgeVox]

Chill in the air
Smoke in my eyes
Lump in my throat
Anger in my heart
And you, you're fucking glowing
How can you just sit there looking lovely
When everything else is looking a whiter shade of decay
I didn't think then
The word stupor doesn't even begin to describe it
I'm wide awake now
I feel as if I've just awoken from a self-imposed coma
Only to find out it's the end of the world
That's funny
I have no problem laughing at all this
All this fucking confusion
Still I'm feeling pretty good
And you
How can you sit there looking so lovely
Wake up
Wake up
Fucking wake up

 

[EdgeVox]

Memories are a bitch
Lost loves are a shrug
And your eyes are stillborn
Your bravados no good here
Seethe now sister
This deserts of our making
Sun in your face
And saltwater blood
Love, you're dusk isn't shy
You're high on your blues
With your revolution shoes
Yeah, you paid for those too
Let's tear it down now
Take the spear from your side
You don't have to cry anymore
The clouds boiling over
God's winking an eye
The storms just starting
But we've been drowning all our lives
You're the eye of the storm
I should've known all along
That you're taking me with you tonight...

 

[ZeroDude]

Oh my, someone is prolific and great at that, well great at times, love some of the stuff after trawling through this, but in the last piece "revolution shoes" is a bit of forced rhyming imo but you redeemed your self amazingly with the rest of the piece, I'm in awe of all this

 

[beegee]

it didn't feel like forced rhyming at all. i thought that part flowed perfectly.

nice work, as usual.

and it's good to see you back.

 

[EdgeVox]

Me dan ganas te llorarte mis vidrios
De gritarte mis deseos
De reirme de mis problemas
Me pienso matar muy pronto
Ya no aguanto mis tormentas
Me muero de sueno
Me muero de ahogarme en tus ojos
Estoy lastimado hasta en el alma
yo no me merezco sentirme asi
Cuando se queme el cielo
Procura buscarte un idiota
Que te crea tus mentiras
Tu vidrio quebrado
Refleja tus caras
Nina perdida me has danado
Por la ultima vez...

 

[ZeroDude]

Now I wish I spoke Spanish, sorry I'm too ignorant to be bothered to learn it, but I'm sure it's a great piece just like all of your others and I would tryto be constructive and give criticism to all of your work but your an extremely talented writer so I'd doubt my input would be of much use, thanks for all of your work posted here and haven't been here long in comparision but the place is in good nick believe me

 

[EdgeVox]

Thanks, I've made it a point to try and read more in DOL and I briefly looked over your thread........pretty cool pretty cool. Thanks again for the comments.

Xavier

 

[ZeroDude]

No problem I love writing, reading and language in general, cheers

 

[For Honor]

Wow, I don't know how I missed all of this here. You've got some great stuff, EdgeVox.

 

[EdgeVox]

April 1, 2005 4:30 am

Indecision sparked by low level lust
Time consuming mediocrity
Blue collar masturbation
The fire's consuming itself
Let down your hair
Raise up your glasses
Cheers to the carousel of monotony
I wish you were there to see it
You'd make the transition so much easier
Let me by you a drink,
It's the least I can do
Now that we're strangers and all
It's not a bad way to fill in the dead moments between us...

 

[EdgeVox]

Midnight comes and I'm drunk again
Seems that the sun sets faster when you're around
Days get shorter and I'm left longing
I don't need another round
I don't need another round
What the hell
Raise our glasses and toast the night
She's always been kind to us
I'm fucking invincible with you by my side
Don't worry honey we'll keep it light
I don't need to tell you it's you
You're the one that keeps me sane
You're the one that I'd be normal for
You're the one that tears me down
It's you...

 

[beegee]

the one written on april first is one of your best, imo.

Let down your hair
Raise up your glasses
Cheers to the carousel of monotony

these lines here are incredible.

they give two completely different images if you let them. bravo.