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I feel ill
this isn't apoem or anything, just an account of what's gong on, a snapshot
I keep dozing off, have been for the last 2 hours, since about 10pm
I'm waiting to get in touch with someone, but they are not around
I feel sick - warm, but also from the chocolate cookies I ate, which are irritating my gums, which I smashed yesterday and are really sensastive, and my mouth feels disgusting
I'm tired
But not
I had a dream
My stepmother and I were in the care, coming hom to NY from vermont or something. We were in vermont at the time, and she said something nice, and she was driving, and I leaned over to give her a sort of hug, but just as I was doing that, I see our car, looking through the windshield, as we crash into another car.
The accident is small, and the guy in the other car is fine, nice, everything goes smoothly. Apparently it's not as bad as I thought it was.
But anyhow, next thing I know it is me driving home alone. My stepmother is somewhere else, and I'm still driving home from vermont, but I'm lost, and have no idea.
I'm vaugely remembering some roads - very realistic - but then an uinrealistic part when I pull into a sort of modern school. I stumble in, but when I do, I' musing this communication device, and I see someone has called, but I don't know what to do because it's not mine, it's my stepmothers. It goes off just as I run into someone, but I make an excuse, a cover up abuot the device and just ask for directions
She pulls out this odd map
And just after I mention I want to go to where i live in NY, the dream ends, and I wake upp
Feeling like crap.
I felt so bad, almost helpless, in the car driving by myself. Not because my stepmother was hurt or anything.... no.... because I .... I was asked "Are you sure you know how to get back on your own"
I was saying yes, very convincingly so
But I had no idea. I lied
I lied trying to make something better, but
I isolated myself and made myself alone
I felt very alone in that car by myself, driving.
I felt disgusting
I felt responsible for causing the accident, because for some reason I wanted to give my stepmother a hug while I was in the passenger seat of the car.
I felt just incompetent.
I'm sure it's easy to read through the dream and see some anxietyies, but it' just blah
I've had dreams 3 nights in a row, and none of them have been particularly happy.
But this one was the worst as far as my internal feelings go.
I actually felt a severe incompetence combined with my isolation this time... I usually don't feel anything in draems, not like that.
But now I"m awake......
I should.. brush my teeth.......
and do..... something.............
this isn't apoem or anything, just an account of what's gong on, a snapshot
I keep dozing off, have been for the last 2 hours, since about 10pm
I'm waiting to get in touch with someone, but they are not around
I feel sick - warm, but also from the chocolate cookies I ate, which are irritating my gums, which I smashed yesterday and are really sensastive, and my mouth feels disgusting
I'm tired
But not
I had a dream
My stepmother and I were in the care, coming hom to NY from vermont or something. We were in vermont at the time, and she said something nice, and she was driving, and I leaned over to give her a sort of hug, but just as I was doing that, I see our car, looking through the windshield, as we crash into another car.
The accident is small, and the guy in the other car is fine, nice, everything goes smoothly. Apparently it's not as bad as I thought it was.
But anyhow, next thing I know it is me driving home alone. My stepmother is somewhere else, and I'm still driving home from vermont, but I'm lost, and have no idea.
I'm vaugely remembering some roads - very realistic - but then an uinrealistic part when I pull into a sort of modern school. I stumble in, but when I do, I' musing this communication device, and I see someone has called, but I don't know what to do because it's not mine, it's my stepmothers. It goes off just as I run into someone, but I make an excuse, a cover up abuot the device and just ask for directions
She pulls out this odd map
And just after I mention I want to go to where i live in NY, the dream ends, and I wake upp
Feeling like crap.
I felt so bad, almost helpless, in the car driving by myself. Not because my stepmother was hurt or anything.... no.... because I .... I was asked "Are you sure you know how to get back on your own"
I was saying yes, very convincingly so
But I had no idea. I lied
I lied trying to make something better, but
I isolated myself and made myself alone
I felt very alone in that car by myself, driving.
I felt disgusting
I felt responsible for causing the accident, because for some reason I wanted to give my stepmother a hug while I was in the passenger seat of the car.
I felt just incompetent.
I'm sure it's easy to read through the dream and see some anxietyies, but it' just blah
I've had dreams 3 nights in a row, and none of them have been particularly happy.
But this one was the worst as far as my internal feelings go.
I actually felt a severe incompetence combined with my isolation this time... I usually don't feel anything in draems, not like that.
But now I"m awake......
I should.. brush my teeth.......
and do..... something.............