FH's Thread III - - (successor to the orignial)

[wizard2c]

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I've been moving around lately........need to find the fellowship....and it's just not here....perhaps it's my timeline which people dislike. Just feel sad.>>>U2 concert in town tonight and I don't even get a sense of it.........perhaps I really don't belong here.

No one at DOL even asked how my friend was doing or passed along prayers to her.

carol
wizard2c

 

[For Honor]

That may be true, I won't say otherwise.

I'm not very good like that. It is one of those things that has been in my mind, but never got translated into a direct statement, so I can see how you might feel upset about that.

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I can see how it would be weird, and the world is uncaring, and I don't mean to imply I'm any different. Not many people really ask me about things, and I guess I don't ask many people about other things in the same way.


The only thing I can speculate, and I do fall into this catagory, is that some of us here at DOL didn't think to bring up a subject, because you may have implied that your friend was in a grave condition.

It seemed almost as if I shouldn't ask.


But you know, none of that matters. You have the right to feel however you may.

 

[For Honor]

How are you, and your friend, doing these days, wizard2c?

 

[For Honor]

"Oh, I'm a passionate man~!


Yes, I know, and when I do let go....... I let go.
That's just it.
Just like a bull in a China shop, as they say.
(I know you'd like to be that China shop...)
But, I have to be that bull.
I have to pay the price

(the price for letting go...) "

 

[wizard2c]

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Glad I didn't go to the concert last night.......the review was good as could be expected from the cost of the tickets. It just seemed Edge stole the show with his expert guitar techniques. Bono's ego well...was Bono's ego. But that was just one review. I didn't bother reading the other paper. Not much reason to.

See the sword versus the words are emerging from Iraq......wonder where I got that idea.....oh yes......it's sitting on my desk.

carol
wizard2c



And now the chess game gets really interesting!

 

[For Honor]

games......... people always seem to want to play games, humans. But the real trick is, they don't even know they are playing games, it's just misplaced competitiveness infused with insecurity.

Always trying to return that "womb"....

 

[wizard2c]

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New sig..for Honor.......where do you get these all from?

Anyhow I've been busy.....yesterday I had some field work to do. Time is moving along at a steady clip.

How are you doing?

I've been getting quite a bit of interest in my Furby project......finally starting to get off the ground.

Got the new Kenny CD The Road and The Radio...comes with a behind-the-scenes interview.

Don't worry about loneliness....you are not alone.......there are others.

carol
wizard2c


Must do some writing but so much is happening out there in the real world..I'll find the time.

 

[wizard2c]

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Just sitting back and listening to Asleep At The Wheel CD.

People better start waking up and soon....you know what happens when you fall asleep and shut your eyes while driving down life's highway.......it's your future.

For Honor, are you okay?

carol
wizard2c

 

[For Honor]

I'm doing alright, what makes you ask?


My signatures and avatars are varying, and it just helps to be a changible and creative production that I do. I don't know, I guess I personalize things.


But I am somewhat conflicted at the moment
I'm sure that will wash over soon, though

 

[youtooellen]

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hey FH-
just felt the need to add that I find your avatars and sigs very cool

I think your sigs + avatars are very neat to see.
and I suppose I somewhat know what you mean by 'personalizing' them or rather constantly changing them.
I'm constantly change my AIM profile and blog sites whatnot.
sometimes I'm so indecisive to a point where I try to avoid going near either just so I don't have to hassle myself by changing them all over again.

No one at DOL even asked how my friend was doing or passed along prayers to her.

I sincerely hope your friend is doing well wizard2c, I'll pass on prayers to her

 

[For Honor]

^ thanks


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I've realized that change is a part of my stay on interfernce, and it's beneficial for to show the different aspects of myself. And, for someone like myself, who is very easily set into a routine, I kind of enjoy embracing change, and think it's healthy for me.

It's like a higher level of a constant - embracing change - rather than "not changing" and "staying the same"....


I should probably write something about that to illustrate it better......

 

[wizard2c]

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Thanks for the caring youtooellen.

For Honor, I like your changes......

it's that timeline again..........something not right with it. Have to go...something I need to attend to.

carol
wizard2c

 

[youtooellen]

hmm. kind of reminds me of that saying 'the safety in routine' .. I think that's how I am, well in comparison to life I suppose.

small changes are so simple to act out on (ie. avatars, sigs, posts, schedules..), but I find that in real life, it's complicated and even more so a risk factor type of thing.
I'm like the epitome of that saying, and sometimes I get frustrated when change happens.

I need to practice on this 'change' more and more, so I can adjust easily next time it happens. maybe that's why I'm changing the small things constantly, to get used to change and maybe later apply it to life situations..

as for unexpected changes though... well that's a different story that could branch out into different directions (and reactions).

oh, and writing about it to illustrate it, would be great FH
the writing would be pretty thought provoking

 

[wizard2c]

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I look at my avatar as a sort of trademark.......as my

I like being a wizard..others don't understand....but it doesn't interfere with what I do.

For Honor likes to create and that is impressive in itself.

I started writing something this afternoon and was so exhausted I feel asleep so I need to complete it. I'm reading a good book {amongst a stockpile of new ones I have not yet stored}...it's called "Interrupted Music The Making of Tolkien's Mythology". The author also wrote "Splintered Light: Logos and Language in Tolkien's World".

carol
wizard2c

 

[For Honor]

I JUST GOT HIGHSPEED INTERNET !!! WOw, DSL is quite something else.


Yes, I'll try to write about it.


I like to create, and build. I am a "system builder" by definition... another "type" to fit into or perhaps stand out from, I don't know. Nevertheless... I like seeing results, and improving upon them.

I better stop there.

And start downloading some songs from "music on the internet", since it won't take 2 hours now

 

[For Honor]

2nd stage


see beyond what you know
Allow yourself to grow
Welcome, welcome, welcome all
You've reached stage 2

In stage one, you've learned how to react
Well you didn't learn
You leanred to understand yourself
To understand your reactions

Well done
I'm glad to show you the way to the second level

first, you have to understand that there are other people
And they have different perspectives than you
For a number of different reasons and this and that and so fourth
But it is imperative....

That you realize we are all human.
you will come to find that we all express different aspects
of our humanity
In different ways, or at least........
some ways ocme easier to one individual rather than another.

That's because we're desinged that way, don't worry.
Just think of it as God's plan, if you'd prefer......

But now that you are in stage two,
You can step up to these simple barriers the ordinary life creates
And look over them

We're all born in our own canyon, our own forest, our own ocean, our own inferno, our own tornado, our own cell
Better yet, our own womb
Coming out is painful, there's a lot we don't know, and it is scary
But that's part of life.

Welcome to stage 2
Welcome to the world, kid
Does it hurt? Are you unsure?
Fantastic.

You'll find the rest of the way on your own
But I'll always be around if you need someone to point you in the right direction.

Because I
Am you.

Don't forget that.


And when you're ready for stage three, let me know.
I'll be there, waiting.
I promise.

 

[For Honor]

...... *testing for wireless connection* with this post.......

 

[For Honor]

Aha!! it exists!!!!!!1111

 

[For Honor]

I'm not here to make friends

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Isn't it dissapointing.... when you can't have your cake and eat it too?

Happy holidays........

 

[wizard2c]

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For Honor...you {as well as the others at DOL} also have a nice holiday...
for whichever you speak......I take it's the one about the Pilgrims landing somewhere a while back. I kinda look at it as when the general public actually buy a hardcopy of the newspaper to find what time the stores open for the annual "running of the bulls".

carol
wizard2c


PS: I just revisited Kenny Chesney's concert on TV........it was fun....made me forget about being alone...now that's it's over.......the loneliness sets in....until I find the fellowship.

 

[For Honor]

You can't be alone if everyone else is; alone is a false word.


It's an illusion

 

[For Honor]

Impossible Dream Lyrics


To dream the impossible dream
To fight the unbeatable foe
To bear with unbearable sorrow
And to run where
the brave dare not go
To right the unrightable wrong
And to love pure and chaste from afar
To try when your arms are too weary
To reach the unreachable star
This is my quest
To follow that star
No matter how hopeless
No matter how far
To fight for the right
Without question or pause
To be willing to march,
march into hell
For that heavenly cause
And I know
If I'll only be true
To this glorious quest
That my heart
Will lie peaceful and calm
When I'm laid to my rest
And the world will be
better for this
That one man, scorned
and covered with scars,
Still strove with his last
ounce of courage
To reach the unreachable,
the unreachable,
The unreachable star
And I'll always dream
The impossible dream
Yes, and I'll reach
The unreachable star

I finally know where this song comes from.....

"The Man of La Mancha; Don Quixote"

.........

 

[wizard2c]

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Right you are, For Honor. In fact I have the sheet music on my music stand as a reminder.

Today reminds me of Gollum's "my precious".........

I would not want to be a sales clerk today that's for sure....it's all actually rather humorous if you analysis ......{must make another note in my book of wisdom about this subject}.

Have you done any Christmas shopping, For Honor?

carol
wizard2c

 

[For Honor]

I've done probably as much as I will for the rest of the season


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[wizard2c]

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For Honor....I guess that means you got my gift already.........{really tis the season to be jolly as people collide with each other for the want of some material possession}.

BTW....it's actually called "The Impossible Dream (The Quest)".

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I've written some good words lately....just can't post it...they're from my sitting on a timeline perspective.

carol
wizard2c

 

[For Honor]

I hope you get your timeline worked out. It seems to be the cause for many of your troubles, or perhaps, doings or undoings.

 

[wizard2c]

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For Honor....that was not very kind. Often I write from a timeline viewing the entire world and it's not for me to say what is right and what is wrong..I just observe and draw a conclusion.....very generic.

You can forget about the Xmas gift.....I never get one anyway....my Mom is too old and just gives me a check to buy myself whatever I like. But I do buy her something and the two dogs and it makes it worthwhile anyway.

I really need to revisit Gandalf and his wisdom and keep my thoughts to myself.

carol
wizard2c

 

[For Honor]

I guess I may have been in a somewhat negative mood when I wrote that. But still, it always seems like your timeline situation is the root of everything.

But... I shouldn't interfere in others affairs, or be critical I guess. I have a tendancy to do that at times. Everyone's business is their own, and I shouldn't snap when someone tries to share their own with me.

I'm not good with things like that. I apologize if my words were too harsh.

 

[For Honor]

Man Of La Mancha (I, Don Quixote) Lyrics



Hear me now oh thou bleak and unbearable world
Thou art base and debauched as can be
And a knight with his banners all bravely unfurled
Now hurls down his gauntlet to thee!

I am I, Don Quixote, the Lord of La Mancha
Destroyer of evil am I
I will march to the sound of the trumpets of glory
Forever to conquer or die

Hear me heathens and wizards and serpents of sin
All your dastardly doings are past
For a holy endeavor is now to begin
And virtue shall triumph at last!

I am I, Don Quixote, the Lord of La Mancha
My destiny calls and I go
And the wild winds of fortune will carry me onward
Oh with us so ever they blow

With us so ever they blow
Onward to Glory I go!

DON QUIXOTE: (Pausing) Now must I consider how sages of the future will describe this historic night. (He strikes a pose) "Long after the sun had retired to his couch, darkening the gates and balconies of La Mancha, Don Quixote with measured tread and lofty expression held vigil in the courtyard of a mighty castle!" (He hears the pompous echo of his voice, bows his head, ashamed) Oh, maker of empty boasts. On this, of all nights, to give way to vanity. Nay, Don Quixote -- take a deep breath of life and consider how it should be lived. (He kneels)

Call nothing thy own except thy soul.
Love not what thou art, but only what thou may become.
Do not pursue pleasure, for thou may have the misfortune to overtake it.
Look always forward; in last year's nest there are no birds this year.
(ALDONZA has entered the couryard en route to her rendezvous with Pedro. She stops, watching DON QUIXOTE and listening)
Be just to all men. Be courteous to all women.
Live in the vision of that one for whom great deeds are done ... She that is called Dulcinea.

INNKEEPER
Hail, Knight of the Woeful Countenance,
Knight of the Woeful Countenance!
Wherever you go
People will know
Of the glorious deeds
Of the Knight of the Woeful Countenance!

Farewell and good cheer
Oh my brave cavalier
Ride onward to glorious strife.
I swear when you're gone
I'll remember you well
For all of the rest of my life.

Hail, Knight of the Woeful Countenance,
Knight of the Woeful Countenance
Fare to the foe,
They will quail at the sight
Of the Knight of the Woeful Countenance!
Oh valorous Knight,
Go and fight for the right,
And battle all villains that be,
But oh, when you do,
What will happen to you
Thank God I won't be there to see!

ALDONZA, SANCHO, INNKEEPER
Hail, Knight of the Woeful Countenance,
Knight of the Woeful Countenance!
Wherever you go
People will know
Of the glorious deeds
Of the Knight of the Woeful Countenance

 

[For Honor]

Let me........

Let me...


My love....

I woke up from a dream, from a sleep, a sleep that I did not need but fell into.
I was waiting for you
For you to respond but you did not, so I laid back my head in my arms
And I fell.......
I fell asleep.

And it's all so real
It's all made believe....

I woke up to a familiar sound, not your voice
But..... no, I heard not
I felt
I felt something, for I had no reason to awaken
But you were there
Waiting for me
Responding to me, as before


And so we spoke, love.
For I do love you, however reluctant and reticent and strong
I may try to be I've fallen
I've fallen up to the clouds, beyond the sea and the stars, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry but I have, even if it hurts you

But don't worry love
Fear you not
For I will be here
Always

ANd though.... though this may be uneasy for you
Just know that I am.
Even if you'd rather I wasn't
Or if your grace should fall
I will be
It's just that way

Let me......
love you........
Let me.........
Love you
Let me in.....

Don't worry for me, just know it
Know I'm here and I'm always on your side
I don't really care, just let me be there

You say
You say that you're not strong enough
So use my strength;
Let me love you

You say
You say that you don't know enough
So use my mind;
Let me love you

Let me help you grown and find your dreams
Find your love, your legendary love that you look for

You say,
You say a lot of things but when you say
When you say "I love you"
Know I can't love you enough
You'be got my heart, and that's all I need to say.

I don't care...
If I have

to love pure and chaste from afar

Just let me do it
Let me love you
Let me show you

Please allow me
Let my loyalties be



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( " " "reprise" " " )



..... I'm no angel, as I've spoken
Surely my pride will be my undoing, I feign no nobility
An actor in a part of a knight, and all this worlds a stage, I know.
But let me, anyways

Can you let me play my part?
...with you?
You and I?

I'm no more than a human being
Running with his eyes closed towards the ideal he sees somewhere
I can't catch an unreachable star, I know.
But it really isn't about catching it, is it.
This life is a journey and I want to live it.

"Character is destiny"
I accept it, I accept it well.
One more...
One more, in the name of a dream.

Let me dream, please, love.
But you know that universal truth....
about fortune and marriage, they say.
Well, it is true.

What more could I want?