a bit of self-indulgence I'm afraid

[frogbat]

My spirit needs feeding
the phiranic pariahs are teething
and the disease is spreading

had to drown my sorrows in caffeine
sweetened life a falsehood - doused in saccherine
I am a has been

So morbid realities are
downing the distance
it?s better the me than the you

Guess it?s been what you might call a really bad lousy day
trying so hard to be nice
but what?s the use when it?s
the ones like me that finish last

in these days a smile?s so hard to find
it wears me out again and again
guess there?s no reward for the meek
no respite for the wicked

 

[popkidu2]

Ya know, that was me about ten years ago. Not a nice way to feel

But you captured the moment well. Especially about trying to find a smile. Somedays when I'm grumpy, it hurts to try and smile. I know what you mean. And no, it's not the least bit self indulgent