So...remember that bit about me not complaining anymore of being single?
Count me back in.
It's not really my fault, just a really really bad time in her life (she confessed to me that there's been more than a few times this year that suicide seemed like a good way out of her problems). So yeah, bad news for someone trying to start a relationship, but now I feel more connected to her than ever (she hasn't told any of her friends about the suicide thoughts).
But still....BLARGHHH!!!
[rant]I'm beginning to doubt that I'll ever find something/someone that'll last more than a few months (or weeks/days as the case may be). For once it'd be nice for someone to come after me, instead of the girl simply giving in to my feelings or whatever. I know I might not be the most exciting, all that good looking, interesting or whatever, but dammit, I've got a lot to offer and it really fucking sucks to get shot down in practically every attempt to show someone that. Maybe I just come across as too normal (aka boring) for anyone to want to stick around. They think they have me all figured out, so why bother looking for more? Either that or I'm dumped into the "you're so sweet/nice/caring/etc" category that by law cuts off all possibility of romance and instead leads only to friendship. I'm really getting sick of this pattern in my life. At least I didn't fall in love with this one first. 
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Count me back in.
It's not really my fault, just a really really bad time in her life (she confessed to me that there's been more than a few times this year that suicide seemed like a good way out of her problems). So yeah, bad news for someone trying to start a relationship, but now I feel more connected to her than ever (she hasn't told any of her friends about the suicide thoughts).
But still....BLARGHHH!!!
[rant]I'm beginning to doubt that I'll ever find something/someone that'll last more than a few months (or weeks/days as the case may be). For once it'd be nice for someone to come after me, instead of the girl simply giving in to my feelings or whatever. I know I might not be the most exciting, all that good looking, interesting or whatever, but dammit, I've got a lot to offer and it really fucking sucks to get shot down in practically every attempt to show someone that. Maybe I just come across as too normal (aka boring) for anyone to want to stick around. They think they have me all figured out, so why bother looking for more? Either that or I'm dumped into the "you're so sweet/nice/caring/etc" category that by law cuts off all possibility of romance and instead leads only to friendship. I'm really getting sick of this pattern in my life. At least I didn't fall in love with this one first. [/rant]
It just takes time! God knows Im still waiting for a guy to come along! 
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Let's just say the old ego hasn't been doing too well lately.
