mysticchild
Acrobat
In the last 5 years of my life, I have come to have spiritual experiences. In 2001 I got sober in September and my life has changed in so many ways. Now life is not always perfect and I struggle with bad depression. I also noticed that people use the word depression to replace the word sad. They are two totally different feelings. Well sadness to me is a feeling , whereas depression to me is a chemical enbalance in the brain. Anyway, It took me a good few years to start believing in a higher power of my understand, whom I choose God. I am not here to throw my beliefs on anyone, I just felt like talking about spiritality and how it has affected my life. When I first got sober I was in such darkness that there was no light to see. It was a dark and lonely place that had no doors to open. My soul had died from substance abuse. I was actually dying, my body too. In the 12 steps program I have learned to connect with God that I had never experienced before , ever! I didnt know how to start, so I got on my knees and prayed. It started to work because I had been able to stay sober in the next couple of weeks.
In life I try to control the show, the lights and the lyrics too. Since I havd connecting with God, I have changed my warped perception on things. I went to the beach the other day and I sat in a chair and just listened to the waves, watched the seagulls, and put my feet in the sand. To me that was God, the God that I can understand. Who made this world , everything in it works perfectly. The sun, moon and the colors of the Earth. it seems to me that people that have no connection with spirituality and destroying the world. People are killing in the name of money and politics, Imho. I was at a meeting yesterday and was the leader of the 12 step meeting. I talked about if as children we were given the 12 steps and needed to pass the class, this place would have more love to give, respect would be the ulitmate and and communication would be the way of life. I just felt like getting my thoughts and feelings out.....I wonder what you think...........One more thing , the lyric in City OF Blinding Lights.." Blessings aren't just for the ones who kneel, luckily".....I dont have to kneel to have God listen because he does when I am listening...
In life I try to control the show, the lights and the lyrics too. Since I havd connecting with God, I have changed my warped perception on things. I went to the beach the other day and I sat in a chair and just listened to the waves, watched the seagulls, and put my feet in the sand. To me that was God, the God that I can understand. Who made this world , everything in it works perfectly. The sun, moon and the colors of the Earth. it seems to me that people that have no connection with spirituality and destroying the world. People are killing in the name of money and politics, Imho. I was at a meeting yesterday and was the leader of the 12 step meeting. I talked about if as children we were given the 12 steps and needed to pass the class, this place would have more love to give, respect would be the ulitmate and and communication would be the way of life. I just felt like getting my thoughts and feelings out.....I wonder what you think...........One more thing , the lyric in City OF Blinding Lights.." Blessings aren't just for the ones who kneel, luckily".....I dont have to kneel to have God listen because he does when I am listening...
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