Muggsy
Refugee
I just don't know what to do to get things better .... I have no money, my job pays like shit and I feel that I have no future as an artist here... I've thinking on saving money to trip to mexico or the USA to show my portfolio but I see those posibilities too far from my reality.
I wish I could help my family with money and get my own place and everything... but things here are hard, most of people like me has to live with their parents and we have lousy jobs without health programs. I've been sick the last month and I had to paid all the services cuz I don't have health trust (cuz i'm over 18) and I don't even get enough money to paid it by myself.
things at home are not better... I can't handle my frustration and I have problems with my parents and my sister, cuz I have panic episodes and I can't manage my anger against myself, I have hurt myself sometimes and I'm afraid to do something worse last month I tried to shock myself with a plastic bag. My mom asked me to go to a terapist but I don't want to go there, I just need some simpathy and to be listened, I guess.
but I can't say that all things are messed up... i've been painting again, with watercolors, and I'm happy while i'm panting and drawing, . I've been attending an illustration workshop and I've met new people there and is like fresh air for me. I have a good friend who listens to me and I know he loves me and cares about me and I love him too. I've been trying to think that things will going to get better and i'm trying my best but sometimes I just don't know where to go.
I wish I could help my family with money and get my own place and everything... but things here are hard, most of people like me has to live with their parents and we have lousy jobs without health programs. I've been sick the last month and I had to paid all the services cuz I don't have health trust (cuz i'm over 18) and I don't even get enough money to paid it by myself.
things at home are not better... I can't handle my frustration and I have problems with my parents and my sister, cuz I have panic episodes and I can't manage my anger against myself, I have hurt myself sometimes and I'm afraid to do something worse last month I tried to shock myself with a plastic bag. My mom asked me to go to a terapist but I don't want to go there, I just need some simpathy and to be listened, I guess.
but I can't say that all things are messed up... i've been painting again, with watercolors, and I'm happy while i'm panting and drawing, . I've been attending an illustration workshop and I've met new people there and is like fresh air for me. I have a good friend who listens to me and I know he loves me and cares about me and I love him too. I've been trying to think that things will going to get better and i'm trying my best but sometimes I just don't know where to go.